A dad, a bag of Oranges, and the first kick he actually saw.

Part 1 ended just as the needles came in. Part 2 picks up from there, and it's the darkest stretch of Mark's story.

His marriage is over and he's alone for the first time in his life. He's in a hotel room in Mentone, with two pairs of shorts, a box of Coronas and a sharps bin so full he's covered it with a towel. "I just wanted to die." What follows is rehab after rehab: a lighthouse drawing with waves crashing around it, a kickboxing rehab where 16 men picked him up off the dojo floor, and his first year clean. Then he goes straight back to dealing while working offshore and sitting in NA meetings.

A six-month sentence for driving while suspended turned into more than a decade in and out of the system. Mark talks frankly about the jail code, three years in isolation, the "face of stillness" you have to wear, and how prison made him institutionalised. His last sentence ended in a psych ward cell, with a meal coming through a trapdoor. He's been stabbed, Narcaned and beaten more times than he can count, and he still doesn't know how he's alive.

Then comes the turn. A legal aid lawyer saw something in him and got him into a program for people with acquired brain injury. He was finally assessed for a head injury he got in 2009. He's been out since September 2024 and has 21 months of recovery behind him. He has a passport again and a key to his family home. He's working the steps with a stranger he now trusts. For the first time, he says the word "God" in a meeting and means it.

This is a raw, honest episode about hitting the bottom more than once, and about what surrender looks like for a man who only ever believed in himself.

"Not a hard man, mate. Just a well broken man."

Recorded in Bali.

This episode contains strong language and frank discussion of injecting drug use, overdose, suicidal thoughts and self-harm, violence, prison and mental illness. Listener discretion is advised.

If this episode brings anything up for you, call Lifeline on 13 11 14 (24/7) or the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline on 1800 250 015.

The timestamps come from the raw Part 2 transcript. Adjust them to match your final edit.

• 00:00 — Losing his wife, and being alone for the first time
• 00:50 — The hotel room in Mentone
• 02:38 — "I just wanted to die"
• 02:50 — Burning everything to the ground
• 03:27 — The lighthouse drawing
• 04:50 — An ultimatum and another rehab
• 05:23 — Doing meetings to keep everyone else happy
• 06:30 — "Swapped the witch for the bitch": brain injury, pills and heroin
• 08:30 — Back to Chapel Street, with six identities
• 09:08 — Foundation House: "the journey from your head to your heart"
• 11:00 — Kickboxing rehab and "the Mad Mexican"
• 14:02 — The dojo, and his first time clean
• 14:50 — From needles to working offshore
• 15:50 — Clean, but back in the game
• 17:31 — "When you're good, you're really good"
• 18:07 — A positive pregnancy test at Tullamarine
• 19:57 — The six-month sentence that turned into 11 years
• 23:35 — Inside: the first stretch and the jail code
• 26:46 — The ego check
• 27:23 — Three years in isolation
• 28:41 — Released September 2024: the roulette wheel tattoo
• 29:53 — The last sentence and the psych ward cell
• 31:09 — Jails, institutions and death
• 32:35 — New teeth and a new smile
• 33:55 — The lawyer who believed in him
• 36:20 — What recovery looks like: a key that turns
• 38:00 — A passport, Bali and trust
• 39:52 — Freedom from fear
• 41:42 — Surrounded by demons, guarded by angels
• 43:54 — "Have you fully conceded?"
• 46:39 — "Hey big fella, help me out"
• 47:39 — "Not a hard man, just a well broken man"

Recorded in Bali, this is Part 1 of one of the raweststories we've shared on Slaying Sober.

Mark grew up in the Latrobe Valley — fishing, ferreting,dirt bikes and footy. But underneath the country-boy childhood, something else was building. Chasing approval he couldn't get at home, Mark had his first bongat nine, was selling bags to older kids by ten, and at eleven took the fall for his mates — the moment he learned "there's no mates in drugs," and the moment the older boys took him under their wing.

What followed was a fast slide: fights, stolen cars, a brawlat 17 that left a man in a coma, a run-in with police that forced him out of town, and a move to Melbourne where tunnel-work money, strip clubs and the party scene took over. A knee injury ended his footy, cocaine opened the door, and ice blew it wide open — feeding a sex addiction, a double life and a drugbusiness that pulled his mates down with him.

Mark is honest about the ego, the damage and the people hehurt. And he's clear about why he's telling it now: so one person listeningmight recognise themselves, start asking questions, and find recovery.

Part 1 ends where things got darker. Part 2 is coming.

In this episode:

·       Growing up in theLatrobe Valley, and the hunger for approval behind it all

·       First bong at nine,dealing by ten, and the lesson at eleven: no mates in drugs

·       How violence becamehis "next best friend"

·       A fight at 17 thatchanged everything, and being pushed out of town

·       Melbourne: big money,strip clubs, raves and the cocaine years

·       How ice took himsomewhere he'd never been — and the double life it created

·       Hurting his mates, andthe moment he started to see who he'd become

·       Why Mark is tellinghis story now

Content warning: This episode contains stronglanguage and frank discussion of drug use, violence, crime, sexual behaviourand a suicide attempt. Listener discretion advised.

Need support? (Australia)

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·       If life is in danger,call 000

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If this story could help someone, share it with them.

In this episode of Slaying Sober, we sit down on the island of the gods to unpack how a hard‑drinking party girl with a broken neck and a messy relationship with her father became a sober, spiritually grounded lawyer living a life built on service instead of chaos.

Ash shares how addiction shaped her identity, how a major injury forced her to finally stop running, and how working a 12‑step program opened the door to a God of her own understanding—and a new relationship with her dad, who is now her best friend and biggest supporter in recovery.

You’ll hear:

• What it really took to go from “fun drunk” to sober professional in Bali.

• How law, spirituality and recovery coexist in her day‑to‑day life.

• Why meetings, service and a higher power became the backbone of a life she actually wants to stay sober

If you’re a high‑functioning drinker, a professional wondering if sobriety will wreck your career, or someone wrestling with faith and father wounds, this conversation will hit home.

Jims amazing recovery story.

An autistic kid who never fit in, a rave scene that promised connection, and an ice habit that nearly killed him – Jim’s story is a masterclass in how “freedom” can turn into a prison.

Jim grew up bullied, misunderstood and late-diagnosed autistic, always feeling on the outside of school, family and friendships. When he found MDMA and the Melbourne rave scene, it felt like magic: confidence, connection, endless love and the sense of belonging he’d been missing his whole life. But that glow didn’t last. Party drugs gave way to dealing, meth and ice, lost jobs, family breakdown and years spent in a garage, completely isolated and shackled to his addiction.

In this raw and honest episode of Slaying Sober, Jim and James unpack autism, ecstasy, meth, family violence, shame and the brutal realities of long-term addiction – and then trace the turning point into rehab, accountability and a new life in recovery. Jim shares how he rebuilt from nothing into a role as a peer worker in the AOD space, what “freedom” really means to him now, and why he’ll “walk with” anyone who is willing to take the first step.

If you’ve ever chased connection in all the wrong places, struggled with neurodivergence and addiction, or wondered whether recovery can work for someone like you, this conversation will hit home.

In this mini replay from Season 3, Episode 8, Faye shares why 30 days alcohol‑free rarely tells you the truth, and what really shifts when you commit to 100 days.

You’ll hear:

• The Valentine’s Day decision that changed everything

• Why 100 days beats a 30‑day “challenge”

• The real‑world benefits: better sleep, glowing skin, energy, and motivation

• How those first 90–100 days lay the foundations for emotional sobriety

Hit follow on Slaying Sober, share this mini with a friend, and tag @slayingsoberpod on Instagram so these stories reach more people who think they’re alone.

Kerry grew up surrounded by death in rural South Africa, with parents who were morticians and a home marked by alcoholism, witch doctors and chaos no child should ever see. At her worst, she was drinking up to six litres of wine a day and using alcohol and food to numb deep trauma, abuse and profound loneliness. Today, she is sober, healing and helping others find hope in the darkest places.

In this powerful episode of Slaying Sober, Kerry shares:

• What it was like being raised in a morgue, desensitized to death and violence from an early age

• The impact of an alcoholic father, childhood sexual abuse and betrayal by people who were meant to protect her

• How her drinking escalated to six litres of wine a day, withdrawal seizures, hospital visits and dangerous blackouts

• The moment her partner’s mum found her “Hoarders: Alcoholic Edition” lounge room and how that confrontation became the turning point

• Why she calls herself the “relapse queen” and what finally made Step One click after years in and out of the rooms of AA

• How sobriety gave her boundaries, self-respect and the courage to leave a coercively controlling relationship

• Navigating love, betrayal and guilt in recovery, including supporting a suicidal partner without picking up a drink

• The role of therapy, sponsorship and a tight recovery circle (including her 82‑year‑old best friend) in keeping her sane and sober

• How she is reclaiming her story through her platform a note from an addict, a sobriety journal and a recovery card deck

If you’ve ever felt broken beyond repair, Kerry’s story proves that you can survive the unsurvivable, build real safety and find a life that is not just substance‑free, but full of compassion, service and quiet joy.

Find Kerry at:

https://www.instagram.com/anotefromanaddict/

In this powerful episode, mum of six and gambling‑harm advocate Kate Seselja shares how an ordinary visit to a club spiralled into years of dark, clockless rooms, mounting debts and crushing shame – including the day she fed $12,000 into a single pokie machine and walked out wondering if she could keep going.

Kate opens up about:

• How pokies and online gambling are addiction by design, not “just entertainment” – and why losses go way beyond money.

• The mental load of secrecy, debt and self‑hate, and the night she almost took her life.

• The tiny threads that kept her here: her kids, her husband’s compassion, and her son’s simple words – “Mum, everyone makes mistakes.”

• Reclaiming her humanness, finding recovery, and turning unbearable shame into The Hope Project, a social enterprise helping people move from just surviving to thriving.

• Why Australia is a global hotspot for gambling harm, and what really needs to change.

If you’ve ever wondered whether your gambling – or someone else’s – is “getting a bit out of hand”, this conversation will help you see you’re not weak, broken or alone. The problem isn’t who you are; it’s what these products are designed to do.

Hit play to hear how Kate went from losing almost everything… to finding hope and a voice loud enough to change lives.

Connect and get support

• Learn more about The Hope Project and Kate’s work: The Hope Project Australia

• Follow Kate on Instagram: @the.hope.project

If you or someone you love is struggling with gambling, please reach out for help. In Australia, you can contact Gambler’s Help on 1800 858 858 or Lifeline on 13 11 14 for free, confidential support 24/7.

But those early morning walks – and a tiny rehab gym – lit a fire she didn’t see coming. Movement became medicine, and strength training gave her something she’d never had before: real power inside and out.

In this episode, Chrissoula shares how she went from long‑term addiction and jail to becoming a personal trainer and leader for women in recovery. We talk about rebuilding a body you’ve abused, smashing limiting beliefs, and creating a strong, sober life that actually feels worth staying for.

If you’ve ever felt “too far gone” to change, this story is proof you’re not.

Instead, he was groomed and sexually assaulted in a Flinders Street Station toilet by Jeff “Joffa” Corfe, the man who would later become one of Collingwood’s most famous supporters.

For 25 years, Mark buried the secret, numbing the pain with ecstasy, marijuana and GP-prescribed Valium until a near-fatal overdose at 19 became his line-in-the-sand moment.

In this raw conversation, Mark shares how childhood acting gigs with shows like Beauty and the Beast, a confusing queer adolescence in 90s Melbourne, and a toxic early relationship all intertwined with his addiction and mental health. He takes us inside the moment he saw his abuser celebrated on TV, the rage and shame that followed, and what finally pushed him to walk into Melbourne Police Centre and report a historical sexual assault decades later.

We talk about what justice looks like when the legal system can’t fully deliver it, including Alex’s landmark case, “Joffa’s rule,” and Mark’s own validation and compensation through VOCAT. Most importantly, Mark shows us what recovery canbecome: a loving marriage, a survivor community, dancing online to reclaim his body, and using his voice so other victims know they’re not alone.

If you’re a survivor, someone in recovery, or you support queer youth, this episode is for you.

From sick kid obsessed with clown doctors in a Brisbane hospital to world‑touring illusionist breaking Houdini records in the US, Ben built a dream career on limelight, applause and escape acts. But behind the smoke and mirrors, alcohol was quietly running the show.

Ben opens up about growing up as one of the only openly gay kids at his Queensland school, using comedy as a shield, and finding his first “high” in the attention that came with magic.

He shares how touring the world, business‑class flights and influencer‑style red carpets slowly turned into lonely hotel rooms, airport vodkas at 9am, and a drinking pattern so warped he started lying to strangers just to protect it.

Despite a successful career and a long‑term partner, Ben lost the thing that matters most: hope.

Now over six years sober, Ben talks candidly about the moments that scared him straight — from waking up last on a plane with the crew staring at him, to watching his partner sit at the end of their street because he was scared to come home.

He explains why traditional 12‑step didn’t fit, how SMART Recovery and medication helped him take ownership, and why his worst day sober is still better than his best day drunk.

This is a raw, funny and deeply human conversation about identity, love, risk, and rebuilding a life you actually want to be present for.

Find Ben at: https://www.instagram.com/thebenmurphy_/

https://www.benmurphy.com.au/

In this episode, Caitlin shares how Crohn’s disease, chronic pain, and grief over losing her dad collided with drugs, crime and violence – and how rehab, NA and a 12‑step program helped her find genuine serenity for the first time in nearlytwo decades. She talks about avoiding a lengthy jail sentence, discovering real connection in fellowship, and what “Caitlin 2.0” looks like as she rebuilds her life clean.

If this episode brings anything up for you, please reach out to a trusted friend, a sponsor, your GP, or a local support service.

You’re not alone, and you don’t have to wait for a rock bottom like Caitlin’s to ask for help.

If this episode has brought anything up for you and you need support (Australia):

 In an emergency or immediate danger, call 000Lifeline – 13 11 14 BeyondBlue –1300 22 4636

You asked for it – this one is for the normies and the addicts. Think of it as a no‑bullshit therapy session for the partners, parents, and friends who are desperate to help but keep getting burned in the process.

We unpack how trying to “save” someone can accidentally turn you into the villain of their story, pushing them deeper into shame, fear, secrecy, and using. You’ll hear how to swap punishment for real‑world consequences, and use simple, practical strategies that actually encourage change instead of fuelling more fights and relapses.

We also tackle the big one: is addiction a moral failing or a disease—and why the answer changes everything about how you talk to yourself and the people you love. This episode is funny, raw, and seriously practical. Hit play for yourself, or share it with the person in your life who thinks they understand addiction—you might both walk away seeing it completely differently.

Ambers Bio:

"After more than 20 years working with people struggling with addiction and the families who love them, I’ve come to a conclusion that goes against much of what people are told about addiction: it isn’t a hopeless condition that people are powerless over. More often, it’s a deeply ingrained pattern built on falsebeliefs, and false beliefs can be changed. Through my work, I’ve built a YouTube community of more than 800,000 subscribers. The comment I hear most often is, 'I wish I had known this years ago. I would have done everythingdifferently.'"

SocialMedia Links:

Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCT8PE1v0xFR9zLXOijxM6hg
IG : https://www.instagram.com/puttheshoveldown/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/addictionrecoveryhope

Linked In: https://www.linkedin.com/in/amber-hollingsworth-833111b8/

In this raw conversation, he shares how childhood poverty and violence, a “harmless” betting habit and online gambling led him to the train tracks, and how counselling, self‑exclusion tools and his daughter’s courage helped him start again.

Shaun shares:

• Growing up in government housing with just him and his mum, surrounded by alcohol, family violence and poverty, relying on charity and support, and how that fuelled his drive to work hard, save and “do the right thing.”

• Leaving school early to support his mum, slowly chipping away at a mortgage, and finally being able to give his own family the Christmases he never had.

• How a one‑off Melbourne Cup tradition with his wife slowly normalised betting, and how an “easy” $2,000 bet on champion racehorse Winx to win $200 opened the floodgates.

• Losing around $220,000 over three to four years, burning through his work cover payout and dipping into his super, even while paying off the house and trying to give his family a better life.

• The way gambling changed his personality – lying, hiding, constantly flicking channels and phones to check races – and the damage it did to trust with his wife and daughter.

• Hitting rock bottom: Centrelink saying no when he had nothing left, sitting on train tracks ready to end his life, and multiple suicide attempts that even the betting company had to escalate to emergency services.

• His daughter’s lifesaving phone call to Gamblers Help, the years of counselling that followed, and why he still sees himself as “in recovery,” with that demon on his shoulder always tapping for one more bet.

• Practical tools that helped: Gamblers Help counselling, financial counselling, the national self‑exclusion register BetStop, and TAB Care to keep him out of venues and apps.

• Why he decided to go public with his story and now uses his lived experience to push for safer gambling laws and to stand alongside other addicts and their families.

At the core of Shaun’s story is love: his relationship with his mum, how growing up in poverty and violence shaped his beliefs about money, safety and loyalty, and why he’s so passionate about helping others who were raised in the same chaos he was. This is a raw, honest, trigger‑warning conversation about gambling, secrecy, shame and suicide – but it’s also a powerful reminder that you’re not alone, and that there is a way out.

This brutally honest conversation covers handing his kids to his parents because he knew they weren’t safe, the day his son begged him not to die, and how moving to Melbourne with nothing but the clothes on his back became a line-in-the-sand moment for his recovery.

If you’ve ever thought you were too far gone or too old to start over, Warren’s story will change your mind.#SlayingSober #RecoveryPodcast #AddictionRecovery #MethRecovery #AustralianPodcast #SobrietyJourney #NA #LivedExperience

A former “life of the party”, James opens up about high‑functioning addiction, suicidal ideation, ego, stigma, outpatient rehab at Arrow Health, sponsorship, gratitude and learning how to become a truly present dad, partner and leader in recovery.

Connect with Ash:

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ashbutterss/​

TEDx Talk – What School Doesn’t Teach You About Happiness: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OfclluaXT4Q​Website: https://www.ashbutterss.com

Ty goes from bullied kid in Ferntree Gully to 450 charges, homelessness, psych wards, and multiple stints in jail – and is now rebuilding his life with six months clean, off all meds, and deeply connected to NA and spirituality.​

From 450 Charges to Spiritual Awakening: Ty’s Story

In this raw and unfiltered episode of Slaying Sober, Ty shares how early bullying, weed at 12 and party drugs as a teen spiralled into meth addiction, crime, homelessness, psychosis and multiple prison sentences –and how a suicide attempt, a peer worker named Jo, NA, and tough love from his family pulled him into recovery.​

In this episode, we talk about:​

Perfect for anyone who’s ever felt “too far gone” or stuckin the system and needs proof that recovery – deep, spiritual, connected recovery – is possible.

From 450 Charges to Spiritual Awakening: Ty’s Story

In this raw and unfiltered episode of Slaying Sober, Ty shares how early bullying, weed at 12 and party drugs as a teen spiralled into meth addiction, crime, homelessness, psychosis and multiple prison sentences –and how a suicide attempt, a peer worker named Jo, NA, and tough love from his family pulled him into recovery.​

In this episode, we talk about:​

Perfect for anyone who’s ever felt “too far gone” or stuckin the system and needs proof that recovery – deep, spiritual, connected recovery – is possible.

Kate Rowe’s raw memoir How the Fck Would I Know? proves recovery miracles happen — but only with brutal honesty and hard work.

🎧 Listen if you want hope that “geographical cures” fail, fragments can reform, and life past 75 sober can feel like the fourth dimension. Raw recovery talk for addicts, LGBTQ+ history buffs, and anyone chasing that humility glow-up.

Guest Bio – Kate Rowe
🏳️‍🌈 78er: Arrested at Sydney’s first Mardi Gras (1978); bashed and jailed for shouting “Up the lezzos!” — paving the way for today’s Pride.
📚 Author: How the Fck Would I Know? (2025) — a no-BS memoir of addiction, near-death from hepatitis, smuggling fails, suicide bids, and a full sobriety rebuild.
🏊 Ironwoman: Competed in brutal ocean swims post-recovery.
🎶 Ukulele player: Her sober-life hack — “you can have fun!”
🌐 Connect: katerowe.net | Buy book on Booktopia

Timestamped Highlights (Recovery Gold)
00:40 – Book meaning: “What the f*ck would I know?” = Stay teachable at 75. No ego, just growth.
01:52 – £10 Pom escape: Fled UK booze/pills/anorexia; landed in Australia’s 70s drug scene.
06:39 – Bali 1970s drug fest: Heroin smoke (no needles = “not addict” delusion). Smuggling, hepatitis, chaos.
12:37 – UK welfare job turned coke-dealing den; bosses, guns, paranoia.
17:13 – Speed psychosis, suicide attempts, Mogadon OD — AA at Rozelle saves her.
21:55 – Therapist: “You’re fragmented.” The long road to wholeness — now 48 years sober.
26:45 – Lesbian awakening, Mardi Gras fightback, queer denial around addiction.
36:43 – Sober at 75: “Miracles take years and brutal work.” Talks to the sky for guidance.

4 Brutal Takeaways

• You take you everywhere: “Geographical cures” are myths.

• Addict logic: “Doc said no booze, not no drugs.” Madness.

• Fragment fix: Honesty + work rebuilds you (took 20 years).

• Sober joy: Ukulele, Ironwoman events, Pride hugs from Gen Z.

The Power of Change and The Power of Forgiveness

From Rage to Redemption: Addiction Recovery Story

Melbourne dad Joe shares his raw journey from childhood sexual abuse, bullying, and bikie violence to sobriety.

Hiding trauma as a teen, he turned to booze, drugs, and bouncing—until a rage-filled night destroying his home terrified his daughter.

Discover AA, monastery rehab in Italy, martial arts mastery, and forgiving his abuser.

Now an AOD teacher and coach, Joe proves change is possible.

Key topics:

• Italian-Aussie identity and school racism

• Suicidal thoughts and brutal violence

• Bikie life costs on family

• "Warrior" discipline for self-control

• Grandfather life changing lives

If you're battling addiction or trauma, this hits hard

#podcast #spotify #podcasting #healingjourney #addictionrecovery #slayingsober #mentalgrowth #martialartslife #resilience #identitytransformation #selfcontrol#warriorspath

From Rage to Redemption: Addiction Recovery Story

Melbourne dad Joe shares his raw journey from childhood sexual abuse, bullying, and bikie violence to sobriety.

Hiding trauma as a teen, he turned to booze, drugs, and bouncing—until a rage-filled night destroying his home terrified his daughter.

Discover AA, monastery rehab in Italy, martial arts mastery, and forgiving his abuser.

Now an AOD teacher and coach, Joe proves change is possible.

Key topics:

• Italian-Aussie identity and school racism

• Suicidal thoughts and brutal violence

• Bikie life costs on family

• "Warrior" discipline for self-control

• Grandfather life changing lives

If you're battling addiction or trauma, this hits hard

#podcast #spotify #podcasting #healingjourney #addictionrecovery #slayingsober #mentalgrowth #martialartslife #resilience #identitytransformation #selfcontrol#warriorspath

John – A Professional Drug Addict for 33 Years
A 33-Year Addiction, Rock Bottom & Real Recovery

What does rock bottom really look like after three decades of addiction?

In this unfiltered episode of Slaying Sober, host James Date sits down with John, a recovering addict who tells it exactly as it was — no masks, no excuses. From gang life and violence to jail time, suicide attempts, and the insanity of addiction, nothing is off limits.

John reminds us that addiction isn’t a moral weakness — it’s an emotional response — and that real recovery demands relentless honesty and total commitment.

This isn’t a “feel-good” recovery story. It’s a real one.

• A 33-year addiction told with brutal honesty — no filters, no fluff

• Real talk on the 12 steps, sponsors, and true fellowship

• Addiction unpacked beyond drugs — it’s about behavior, thought, and identity

• A grounded take on spirituality without labels or dogma

• Recovery described like a football game — every quarter, every play counts

• “Addiction is an emotional response — not a moral failure.”

• “If I’m serious, I have to give it everything I’ve got.”

• “Rock bottom for an addict is death.”

• Recovery begins with honesty, awareness, and connection

• Gratitude for hard times is spiritual mastery

• You don’t have to call it God — just learn to understand yourself

00:00 – John’s story begins
00:57 – Childhood, bullying & belonging
04:44 – Addiction takes over
08:27 – Jail, chaos & consequences
13:51 – What rock bottom really is
18:52 – Relapse, pain & truth
29:59 – Hardcore recovery explained
35:15 – Spirituality without labels
44:18 – Words, perception & reality
55:45 – Growth, service & rebuilding life

• Anyone struggling with addiction or relapse

• People curious about 12-step recovery and community

• Listeners interested in mental health, spirituality & self-awareness

• Anyone who needs hope — without the hype

#SlayingSober #AddictionRecovery #RecoveryJourney #12StepProgram #Sobriety #MentalHealthAwareness #RockBottom #LifeAfterAddiction #HealingJourney #PersonalTransformation

She drank for 45 years.She got sober at 63.
And she’s telling the kind of truth most people spend a lifetime avoiding.

In this raw, no‑filters chat, Suzie opens up about hermemoir The Hole in the Soul: From Chaos to Clarity — a storybuilt on addiction, jail time, broken relationships, spiritual bankruptcy… and the long road to redemption.

We talk about what it’s really like when:

Alcohol feels like the love of your life — until it turns on you.

You drink against your own will.

Relapse knocks you flat after years of “doing so well.”

The shame is quiet, but it’s everywhere.

And one moment in a bar changes everything.

This isn’t a shiny recovery story.
It’s real — messy, confronting, and deeply human.

Why this conversation hits different:
Most stories about addiction tidy up the truth. Suzie doesn’t. She doesn’t sell hope — she lives it, one day, one choice at a time.

If you’ve ever felt:

Stuck in habits you hate

Afraid you’ve gone too far to come back

Tired of pretending everything’s fine

This conversation’s for you.

🎧 Listen now: SuzieBrowne — From Chaos to Clarity. Sober at 63.
Follow Slaying Sober for more real, honest stories that cut through the noise.
And if someone you love needs to hear this… send it their way.

Because sometimes, the path to clarity really doesbegin in chaos.

#AddictionRecovery #SobrietyStories #NeverTooLate#HealingJourney #RealTalk #FromChaosToClarity #SlayingSober

Suzie Browne – A Hole in the Soul

Available here: www.amazon.com.au/Hole-Soul-Suzie-Browne/dp/1764350502

In this deeply honest episode of Slaying Sober, James sits down with Dale, a husband, father, musician, powerlifter, and recovering alcoholic, to unpack how casual drinking quietly turned into isolation, shame, and dependency — and how choosing sobriety gave him the life he never thought possible.

From hiding cans and drinking alone… to journaling, setting boundaries, and becoming the dad his kids have never seenwith a drink in his hand — this conversation hits where ithurts and where it heals.

• A real story of functional alcoholism that manyrelate to but rarely admit
• The emotional moment that made him say: “I have a problem”
• How fatherhood became the non-negotiable reason to quit
• Sobriety without AA — journaling, honesty, and community instead
• Why strength training, routine, and kindness became survival tools
• A powerful reminder: you don’t miss what alcohol took from you until it’s gone

Drinking alone, shame, and hiding in plain sight
Emotional regulation through alcohol — and what happens when it stops working
Crying, masculinity, and learning to feel again
Marriage, boundaries, and outgrowing old friendships
Why sobriety didn’t make life smaller — it made it meaningful

00:01 What truly brings joy after addiction
04:33 When weekend drinking became daily drinking
06:02 Drinking alone, shame, and isolation
12:22 What “rock bottom” actually looked like
18:25 “I think I have a problem” — the turning point
21:42 Choosing sobriety without an end date
24:26 Tattoos, mantras, and earning your life back
26:40 Crying, kids, and emotional presence
29:00 Fatherhood as the ultimate why
32:45 Journaling, talking, and staying sober
36:14 Helping others and receiving it back
42:12 “I hope I never drink again”

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Amber’s story on the Slaying Sober podcast is raw, confronting, and deeply hopeful.From growing up in Australia’s heavy drinking culture to teenage substance use, sex work, and intravenous ice addiction, Amber takes us through the unfiltered reality of addiction—and the quiet power of recovery.

Now three years sober through a 12-step program, Amber shares how detox, ninemonths of rehab, daily sponsor calls, and relentless honesty helped her rebuild a life she never thought she deserved. This episode dives into youth mental health, neurodivergence, codependency, and what it really means to surrender when you’ve tried everything else.

She also opens up about her 20-hour silence challenge for youth mental health—transforming loneliness into peace—and how recovery taught her authenticity after years of masking, bullying, and emotional neglect.

This is not a glamorized recovery story. It’s real, uncomfortable, and proof that sobriety works—even when you’re young, broken, and convinced you’re too far gone.

•From first drink at 14 to drug-induced psychosis

•Losing 30kg in one month during active addiction

•Ice addiction through pipes and needles

•Sex work, court bonds, and criminal survival

•The moment of rock bottom that sparked change

•Why surrender isn’t weakness—it’s freedom

•“Find better meetings like you found better drugs” 

Sobriety Milestones: Clean since November 21, 2022 | Detox + 9-month rehab | 4–5meetings weekly

Recovery Tools: 12-step fellowship, sponsor accountability, grounding practices, service work 

Personal Growth: From people-pleasing and masking to self-acceptance and advocacy

Challenges Overcome: Ice addiction, sex work from age 17, psychosis, emotional abandonment

00:01:19– Silence challenge: boredom vs peace

02:11:00– Alcohol normalized in childhood

07:20:00– Drugs used to quiet the mind (neurodivergence)

19:10:00– Rock bottom and mirror moment

26:53:00– Detox, rehab, surrender

41:28:00– Three years sober & life today

Why This Episode Matters:

This is a 22-year-old’s unfiltered truth—no recovery clichés, no sugar-coating. A rare youth perspective on ice addiction, sex work, and sobriety within Australian culture, offering practical tools and real hope for anyone who thinks they’re “too young” or “too far gone.”

If you’re questioning your relationship with substances, supporting someone in recovery, or searching for real hope—listen now. Share this episode with someone who needs proof that change is possible.

Amber’s story on the Slaying Sober podcast is raw, confronting, and deeply hopeful.From growing up in Australia’s heavy drinking culture to teenage substance use, sex work, and intravenous ice addiction, Amber takes us through the unfiltered reality of addiction—and the quiet power of recovery.

Now three years sober through a 12-step program, Amber shares how detox, nine months of rehab, daily sponsor calls, and relentless honesty helped her rebuild a life she never thought she deserved. This episode dives into youth mentalhealth, neurodivergence, codependency, and what it really means to surrender when you’ve tried everything else.

She also opens up about her 20-hour silence challenge for youth mental health—transforming loneliness into peace—and how recovery taught her authenticity after years of masking, bullying, and emotional neglect.

This is not a glamorized recovery story. It’s real, uncomfortable, and proof thatsobriety works—even when you’re young, broken, and convinced you’re too far gone.

•From first drink at 14 to drug-induced psychosis

•Losing 30kg in one month during active addiction

•Ice addiction through pipes and needles

•Sex work, court bonds, and criminal survival

•The moment of rock bottom that sparked change

•Why surrender isn’t weakness—it’s freedom

•“Find better meetings like you found better drugs” 

Sobriety Milestones: Clean since November 21, 2022 | Detox + 9-month rehab | 4–5 meetings weekly

Recovery Tools: 12-step fellowship, sponsor accountability, grounding practices, servicework

Personal Growth: From people-pleasing and masking to self-acceptance and advocacy

Challenges Overcome: Ice addiction, sex work from age 17, psychosis, emotional abandonment

00:01:19– Silence challenge: boredom vs peace

02:11:00– Alcohol normalized in childhood

07:20:00– Drugs used to quiet the mind (neurodivergence)

19:10:00– Rock bottom and mirror moment

26:53:00– Detox, rehab, surrender

41:28:00– Three years sober & life today

Why This Episode Matters:

This is a 22-year-old’s unfiltered truth—no recovery clichés, no sugar-coating. A rare youth perspective on ice addiction, sex work, and sobriety within Australian culture, offering practical tools and real hope for anyone who thinks they’re “too young” or “too far gone.”

If you’re questioning your relationship with substances, supporting someone in recovery, or searching for real hope—listen now. Share this episode with someone who needs proof that change is possible.

Discover tools like NA meetings, boundaries, andsober love that fueled her transformation.

Childhood Roots: Single mum's sacrifices amid poverty, absent dad, family losses like stillborn sibling.

Teen Beginnings: First sips at 9-10, binge drinking by 16, daily weed with best friend worsening anxiety/depression.

Trauma Spiral: Family violence, assaults, abusive partner; drugs as escape, escalating to pills, speed, coke, ketamine post-breakup.

Rock Bottom: Mother's Day 2025—manipulating friends for drugs, suicidal thoughts, dad/step-mum rescue; feeling trapped despite knowing resources.

Recovery Wins: First NA meeting shatters loneliness, sober partner via Hinge, therapy, gym/nature, selective social drinking; boundaries with using dad.

01:51– Mum's sacrifices, pure love despite poverty.

03:21– Fond memories: free activities, quality time.

06:50– First alcohol at 9, weed/partying escalation.

09:59– Trauma unpacked: dad's absence, assaults, violence.

14:44– Post-18 drug rampage, controlling ex's ultimatum.

21:42– Mother's Day breakdown, suicide contemplation.

29:15– NA breakthrough, meeting sober partner.

33:55– Tools: boundaries, gym, nature, community.

40:59– Advice: Go all-in on recovery, no mold required.

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Slaying Sober delivers unfiltered Aussie recovery tales—like Jasmine's—that shatter "hardcore addict only" myths, blending trauma truths, practical tools (NA, boundaries, nature), and hope for weekend warriors. Perfect for Melbourne party scene survivors seeking real, relatable paths to freedom without total booze bans.

In this conversation, Nicole shares her journey of healing alongside her husband's battle with addiction. She discusses the challenges faced by families of addicts, the importance of self-care, and the need for open communication. Nicole emphasizes the significance of understanding co-dependency and the impact of trauma on relationships. The discussion also highlights the process of rebuilding trust and making amends, as well as the necessity of creating safe spaces for vulnerability and connection.

Takeaways

Both partners in a relationship affected by addiction have their own healing journeys.

Codependency can lead to neglecting one's own needs and well-being.

Trauma can stack and complicate the healing process for families.

Open communication is essential for rebuilding trust in relationships.

Self-care is crucial for those supporting loved ones with addiction.

Recognizing signs of addiction can be challenging, especially with silent struggles.

Creating safe spaces for vulnerability fosters connection and healing.

Making amends requires transparency and accountability from the recovering partner.

Emotional sobriety is as important as physical sobriety in recovery.

The ripple effect of addiction impacts not just the individual but their entire family.

They emphasize the importance of being present with family, preparing for holiday gatherings, and supporting one another in their recovery journeys.

The discussion also touches on the emotional challenges that can arise during this time of year, as well as practical tips for thriving at Christmas parties.

In this conversation, Ashley Smith shares his journey from addiction to recovery, discussing the challenges he faced growing up in Tasmania, his struggles with substance abuse, and his commitment to helping at-risk youth. He emphasizes the importance of breaking the cycle of addiction and the role of community support in fostering resilience and hope. Ashley also highlights his recent initiatives to empower young people and create positive change in his community, showcasing his passion for making a difference.

Takeaways

Breaking the cycle of addiction is crucial for personal and community healing.

Conversations about addiction and mental health are more accepted today than in the past.

Ashley aims to empower at-risk youth through mentorship and community events.

His childhood was marked by struggles with family addiction and mental health issues.

Ashley experienced severe consequences from his addiction, including multiple hospital visits and prison sentences.

A turning point in his life came after a near-fatal overdose.

He found purpose in helping others, which aids his own recovery.

Ashley emphasizes the importance of community support in overcoming addiction.

He is committed to creating non-profit initiatives to support youth in Tasmania.

Ashley believes that true happiness comes from meaningful connections and helping others, not material wealth.

Takeaways

Podcasts were crucial in my sobriety journey.

Alcohol-free drinks can be triggering for some.

Celebrating milestones in sobriety is important.

Childhood experiences shape our relationship with alcohol.

Family dynamics can influence drinking habits.

Anxiety often follows a night of drinking.

Sobriety allows for deeper connections with family.

Self-love is a key component of recovery.

The first 100 days of sobriety are transformative.

Focusing on gains rather than losses is essential.

• Jared’s “normal” Aussie upbringing, love of surfing and metal music, and early experiences with alcohol.​

• How drinking escalated in his late teens and 20s around clubs, footy, bands, and mates, leading to blackouts, fights, guilt, relationship breakdown, and large unpaid fines.​

• The point nine years earlier where he decided to stop drinking after another destructive binge and ongoing shame, including how publicly declaring his intent to quit and a court decision wiping $62,000 in fines became a turning point he sees as a “higher power” moment.​

• Jared initially tried to stay sober mostly on his own, attending a few AA meetings, taking some tools, then “white‑knuckling” it for about seven years, still carrying a lot of self‑hate and ego.​

• Returning to 12‑step meetings as a support person for his partner humbled him; finding a sponsor and doing the steps shifted him from merely not drinking to actually healing emotionally and spiritually.​

• He describes the steps as a way of living that reduced his anger (for example, road rage), helped him forgive himself, and allowed him to genuinely like and love who he is.​

• Jared and James talk about the stigma of addiction and how many people in recovery hide their past because they feel shame, even after getting sober.​

• Jared founded “University of Sober Living” as a clothing brand and community to give people in recovery a visible, pride‑based identity, plus a website where people can reach out for support outside formal 12‑step rooms.​

• Both men emphasise “recovering loudly so others don’t die in silence,” and how being open about sobriety prompts others at footy clubs, gyms, or social circles to quietly ask for help.​

• Jared explains how alcohol contributed to the breakdown of his relationship with his children’s mother and how he prioritised drinking over family, though he avoided drinking directly in front of his kids.​

• He and his current partner are both in recovery; she is also a carer for a severely disabled child, experienced carer burnout and rehab, and is now building services to support other special‑needs parents.​

• Their household focus is now on service and community—supporting people with addiction and carers in distress—because recovery has given them a “second life” they want to share.​

• Jared still plays Super Rules footy (over‑35s), noting that many teammates deal with health issues, addiction, or major life stress and often seek someone with lived experience to talk to.​

• His week in recovery usually involves around five meetings across both AA and NA, which he compares to ongoing “spiritual fitness” and a source of connection and emotional reset.​

• He and James stress that you can fully enjoy team sport and camaraderie while sober—celebrating with soft drinks, conversation, and community instead of relying on alcohol.

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Get ready to laugh, and maybe cry, as Sammy and James chat about their

Summary

In this episode, James and Levvo reconnect over their shared experiences of sobriety and reminisce about their wild days living in a pub in Bristol. They explore the impact of alcohol on their lives, the friendships formed during that time, and the entrepreneurial spirit that emerged from their drinking culture. Through humorous anecdotes and reflective insights, they discuss the challenges of navigating sobriety and the lessons learned from their past. In this conversation, Levo and James Date discuss their journeys of sobriety, the challenges they faced, and the rewards they have experienced since giving up alcohol. They explore the social aspects of drinking, the struggle with moderation, and the importance of self-reflection and honesty in their recovery. The discussion also touches on the impact of sports culture on drinking habits and the fulfillment they find in their lives post-alcohol. They emphasize that anyone can achieve sobriety and that the journey is worth it, sharing personal anecdotes and insights along the way.

Takeaways

We shared an enthusiasm for sobriety.

Living in a pub created lifelong friendships.

Drinking was a daily routine without fail.

We were enablers in our drinking culture.

The Naked Bacon Bet was a wild experience.

The 10 Quid Challenge showcased our creativity.

Induction at the cider bar was a rite of passage.

Alcohol was deeply ingrained in our social lives.

Sobriety has led to self-discovery and growth.

Reflecting on past behaviors brings both laughter and shame. Sobriety can feel foreign, especially in social situations.

Non-alcoholic beers can be a social alternative.

The decision to stop drinking can lead to profound personal rewards.

Self-reflection is crucial in the journey of sobriety.

Moderation can be a difficult battle for many.

Past experiences shape our current perspectives on alcohol.

Finding fulfillment outside of alcohol is possible and rewarding.

Honesty with oneself is key to recovery.

Sports culture can heavily influence drinking habits.

The journey of sobriety can inspire others to make changes.

In this conversation, Jake shares his transformative journey from prison to recovery, emphasizing the importance of vulnerability, daily practices, and helping others. He reflects on his past, the significance of his relationships, particularly with his grandmother, and the spiritual symbolism of his experiences. Jake highlights the power of community and support in overcoming addiction and encourages others to take steps towards a better life.

Takeaways

Jake was given a second chance after prison.

He faced a pivotal moment to change his life.

Vulnerability is key to forming connections.

Rehab taught him the importance of honesty.

He experienced a spiritual awakening during recovery.

Daily practices like breath work are essential for him.

Helping others is a crucial part of his recovery.

His relationship with his grandmother is foundational.

Symbolism in his life events helped him heal.

Jake believes dreams can come true with effort.

Takeaways:

Gary shares his journey of addiction and recovery.

He emphasizes the importance of self-love in overcoming addiction.

The role of environment and relationships in addiction is crucial.

Gary discusses the challenges of staying sober after recovery.

He highlights the significance of community support in recovery.

Nature and mindfulness are key tools for healing.

Gary's story illustrates the impact of trauma on addiction.

He believes in the power of personal stories to inspire others.

Gary's relationship with his partner has been a source of strength.

He stresses the need for internal work to achieve lasting sobriety.

Summary

In this conversation, Gary shares his profound journey from addiction to recovery, emphasizing the importance of self-love, community support, and the role of nature in healing. He discusses the challenges faced during his addiction, the impact of his environment, and the significance of relationships in his recovery process. Gary's story serves as an inspiration for those struggling with addiction, highlighting the internal work required to achieve lasting sobriety.

Chapters

00:00 Introduction and Early Reflections

07:51 Breaking the Cycle of Addiction

10:51 Life After Prison

13:32 The Turning Point: Finding Love

22:26 Self-Love and Recovery

23:57 Articulation and Connection in Recovery

24:37 The Journey to Sobriety: Personal Experiences

25:40 Changing Environments for Recovery

26:25 Building Community in Recovery

27:23 Strength Through Overcoming Addiction

28:12 Daily Practices for Recovery

29:11 Celebrating Progress in Recovery

30:04 The Role of Social Media in Recovery

31:48 Expectations of Praise in Sobriety

32:55 Facing Criticism and Naysayers

34:09 The Reality of Addiction Recovery

37:04 Nature as a Healing Tool

38:42 Childhood Joys and Their Role in Recovery

41:56 The Importance of Community Support

42:52 Gratitude for Supportive Relationships

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In this conversation, Nicki shares her inspiring journey of overcoming alcohol addiction, detailing her experiences from childhood through to her current nine months of sobriety.

She discusses the early signs of her drinking habits, the escalation into dependency, the impact on her marriage, and the pivotal moment that led her to seek help.

Nicki emphasizes the importance of community support, self-love, and the ongoing nature of recovery, highlighting the positive changes in her life since becoming sober.

Takeaways

• Nicki has been sober for nine months and feels amazing.
• She experienced early drinking habits as a way to gain confidence.
• Alcohol became a coping mechanism for her anxiety.
• Nicki's marriage was affected by both partners being heavy drinkers.
• She sought help after realizing her drinking was unmanageable.
• Rehab provided her with tools to face her problems without alcohol.
• Nicki emphasizes the importance of gratitude in her recovery.
• She encourages others to seek help and not to do it alone.
• Her children are now proud of her journey and recovery.
• Nicki believes that the journey of recovery is beautiful and transformative.

Chapters

00:00 Introduction and Early Sobriety Journey

04:34 First Experiences with Alcohol

06:07 Escalation into Substance Use

07:43 Motherhood and Alcohol's Role

09:15 Anxiety and Reliance on Alcohol

11:27 Social Drinking and Community Expectations

12:48 Realization of Drinking Problems

13:28 Marriage Breakdown and Alcohol's Impact

14:23 Attempts to Seek Help

16:36 Understanding Addiction and Its Progression

18:38 The Turning Point to Sobriety

22:50 Final Steps to Recovery

23:58 The Decision to Seek Help

25:48 Experiences in Rehab

27:55 The Importance of Support

30:54 Overcoming Guilt and Embracing Recovery

33:03 Role Modeling for Children

35:51 Finding Happiness in Sobriety

37:52 Tools for Ongoing Recovery

41:40 The Power of Vulnerability and Community

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As well as some witty insights from Sam.

Summary

In this conversation, Sam shares his journey from addiction to recovery, emphasizing the importance of mentorship and personal stories in helping others.

He discusses the glamorization of gang life and the harsh realities of addiction, highlighting the need for a more effective rehabilitation system.

The conversation also touches on generational trauma and the impact of societal perceptions on individuals struggling with addiction.

In this conversation, Sam shares his journey from addiction to recovery, emphasizing the importance of healing past traumas and the role of mentorship in helping others.

He discusses his early experiences with drugs, the escalation of his addiction, and the realization that true peace comes from within rather than from external sources.

Sam reflects on the sense of belonging he found in unhealthy environments and the turning point that led him to seek help in rehab. In this conversation, Sam shares his profound journey of recovery from addiction, emphasizing the importance of compassion, support, and understanding the roots of addiction.

He discusses the role of somatic therapy in emotional healing and the significance of establishing a daily routine to maintain sobriety. Sam highlights the transformative power of relationships, particularly with his mother and wife, and reflects on the importance of self-love and positive self-talk in the recovery process.

The conversation culminates in a celebration of personal growth and the impact of recovery on family dynamics.

Takeaways

Unbreakable means healing past traumas and fears.

Helping others transition from broken to unbreakable.

Service to others is crucial in recovery.

Childhood experiences shape our future behaviors.

Drugs initially provided a sense of peace.

Chasing happiness can lead to disappointment.

Finding true connection is essential for recovery.

Addiction manifests in various forms beyond drugs.

Belonging can be found in unhealthy environments.

Trust and compassion can spark change. Sam's journey of recovery involved breaking trust with his mother.

Compassion from others helped Sam learn to be compassionate to himself.

Understanding the root causes of addiction is crucial for recovery.

Somatic therapy can help release trauma stored in the body.

Establishing a daily routine is essential for maintaining sobriety.

Self-love and positive self-talk are powerful tools in recovery.

Compassionate relationships can significantly aid in the healing process.

Recovery is about more than just meetings; it's about daily actions.

Sam emphasizes the importance of being present for his children.

The gifts of recovery include deeper connections with loved ones.

Chapters

00:00 From Broken to Unbreakable: Sam's Journey

08:08 First Encounters with Drugs and Alcohol

13:06 Escalation into Drug Culture

19:05 The Cycle of Addiction and Seeking Acceptance

22:43 The Brotherhood and Comradery of the Bike Club

28:06 The Turning Point: Compassion and Trust in Recovery

32:15 The Struggles of Rehabilitation and Self-Discovery

36:11 The Role of Family Support in Recovery

41:14 Navigating Recovery: Justifications and Challenges

46:22 Reframing Childhood Trauma

51:44 Establishing a Healing Routine

52:12 Practicing Gratitude and Self-Love

54:27 Mindfulness and Presence in Daily Life

56:47 Compassion and Understanding in Recovery

57:10 The Role of Family in Recovery

01:02:09 Celebrating Growth and Connection

01:04:48 Reflections on School and Early Life

01:05:28 The Business of Drug Dealing

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In this conversation, Andrew shares his profound journey from addiction to recovery, emphasizing the importance of self-discovery, community, and the role of golf in his life. He reflects on his early experiences, the challenges he faced, and how he found solace and purpose through therapy and vulnerability. Andrew discusses the significance of surrendering to life's challenges and the opportunities that arise in recovery, ultimately leading to a fulfilling life as a professional golfer.

Takeaways

Golf is a metaphor for life and self-discovery.

Serenity enhances performance in challenging activities.

Addiction often stems from unresolved trauma.

Community support is crucial in recovery.

Therapy plays a vital role in healing past wounds.

Vulnerability is a strength, not a weakness.

Surrendering to circumstances opens up new opportunities.

Recovery is about taking responsibility for one's life.

Building a new life requires effort and commitment.

Finding passion can lead to personal fulfillment.

Chapters

00:00 The Challenge of Golf and Mindfulness

03:02 Navigating Life and Sobriety

05:54 Reflections on Early Sobriety

08:40 Childhood and Adoption

12:03 The Impact of Trauma

15:00 The Journey into Alcohol and Drugs

17:47 The First Experience with Alcohol

20:35 Consequences of Addiction

23:58 Life in the Cycle of Addiction

26:49 Incarceration and Its Lessons

29:31 The Turning Point to Recovery

37:40 The Journey to Rehab

40:36 Life in Rehab: Structure and Community

44:48 Transitioning to Life After Rehab

48:02 The Role of Responsibility in Recovery

55:43 Surrender and Acceptance in Recovery

01:00:56 Finding Freedom Through Vulnerability

01:08:28 The Power of Therapy and Community

01:12:56 Pursuing Passions: Golf and Personal Growth

She discusses the creation of SOS Melbourne, a community aimed at supporting women in sobriety, and reflects on the impact of her upbringing and relationships on her drinking habits.

Dolly emphasizes the importance of faith in her recovery, the rewards of being a present parent, and the need for social spaces that do not revolve around alcohol.

The discussion highlights the growing movement against the normalization of drinking culture, particularly among mothers.

Takeaways

• Dolly created SOS Melbourne to fill a gap in sobriety support for women.
• She felt lonely in her recovery journey and sought community.
• Dolly's childhood experiences shaped her relationship with alcohol.
• Binge drinking was normalized in her social circles, complicating her perception of addiction.
• Finding love and starting a family prompted Dolly to reassess her drinking habits.
• COVID-19 intensified the pressures of 'mummy wine culture'.
• Dolly's faith played a crucial role in her recovery process.
• She emphasizes the importance of being a reliable parent post-recovery.
• Dolly's community events focus on socializing without alcohol.
• The movement against alcohol normalization is gaining momentum.

Chapters

00:00 Introduction and Setting the Scene

03:06 Creating a Supportive Community for Women in Sobriety

06:08 Personal Journey: Growing Up with Alcoholism

09:00 The Role of Alcohol in Social Life

11:53 Recognizing the Problem: A Turning Point

14:25 Navigating Recovery: AA and Beyond

15:46 Navigating Recovery and Support Systems

16:31 The Role of Faith in Personal Transformation

18:22 Finding Peace Through Faith

20:13 The Journey of Recovery and Relapse

21:49 Rediscovering Self and Purpose

23:14 The Impact of Sobriety on Parenting

25:43 Challenging Societal Norms Around Alcohol

27:33 Building a Supportive Community

29:22 Creating Meaningful Connections Without Alcohol

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Simon discusses his early experiences with substances, the escalation of his addiction, and the impact on his relationships, particularly with his children and their mother. He emphasizes the significance of community, the 12-step program, and the ongoing process of making amends and finding balance in recovery.

Ultimately, Simon highlights the gift of recovery as a pathway to love, connection, and a fulfilling life.

Take Aways:

• Your outlook on life will change through recovery.
• Reading can be a healthy escape from reality.
• Celebrating milestones in sobriety is important.
• Spiritual connections can provide strength in recovery.
• First experiences with substances often shape future behaviors.
• Addiction can escalate quickly and impact relationships.
• Recovery often requires multiple attempts and support.
• Living the steps is a continuous process in recovery.
• Finding balance in life is crucial for sustained sobriety.
• The journey of recovery can lead to deeper connections with family.

• Transformative Reflections on Sobriety
• The Power of Reading and Escaping Through Books

"I just wanted the head to stop."

"I was a narcissistic asshole."

"I just didn't want to die."

Chapters

00:00The Journey to Fitness and Recovery

02:09Navigating AA and NA: A Personal Perspective

04:40Spirituality and Connection: The Role of Faith

11:20First Encounters with Substance: A Path to Addiction

21:29The Descent into Addiction: A Personal Story

28:38Family Life and Addiction: The Struggle Within

32:41Struggles with Promises and Self-Realization

35:37Escaping Reality: The Downward Spiral

40:14The First Attempt at Recovery

45:32Lessons from Rehab: Listening and Learning

50:05Navigating Early Recovery: Meetings and Support

56:15The Role of the Steps in Recovery

01:01:26Making Amends and Building Relationships

01:14:46Finding Love and Acceptance in Recovery

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• Her first experience with alcohol was at age 12, linked to trauma.
• Growing up with ADHD, Jess felt out of place in her environment.
• She became a high functioning addict, masking her struggles.
• The stigma of addiction often overlooks high functioning individuals.
• Jess's overdose at work was a pivotal moment in her life.
• Detoxing during COVID-19 presented unique challenges.
• Reaching out for help was a crucial step in her recovery.
• Jess was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and PTSD during her recovery.
• She emphasizes the importance of understanding mental health in addiction. Navigating psychotic episodes can lead to profound realizations about one's mental health.
• Receiving a diagnosis can be a relief, shifting the perception from being an addict to being someone in need of help.
• Medication can stabilize bipolar disorder, but finding the right one can take time.
• Complex PTSD can stem from various traumas, including addiction and societal pressures.
• Building a supportive network is crucial for recovery, even if it means losing some friends along the way.
• Setting boundaries is essential for maintaining recovery and mental health.
• Celebrating milestones in recovery can reinforce positive changes and connections.
• Relationships can change significantly during recovery, revealing true friends and support.
• Advocacy for mental health awareness is vital to reduce stigma and promote understanding.
• Language matters; terms like 'neuro-spicy' can undermine the seriousness of ADHD and other conditions.
• There is a significant correlation between ADHD and addiction, highlighting the need for proper diagnosis and treatment.
• Access to ADHD diagnosis and treatment is crucial for preventing addiction and improving lives.
• Children with ADHD face unique challenges that require understanding and support from parents and educators.
• Finding purpose in advocacy can help others navigate their mental health journeys.

In this conversation, Jess Kennedy shares her profound journey through addiction, beginning with her early experiences with alcohol at the age of 12, linked to trauma.

She discusses her struggles with ADHD, feeling out of place, and how she became a high functioning addict, masking her issues while maintaining a successful career.

Jess recounts a pivotal moment when she overdosed at work, leading to a turning point in her life.

Throughout her recovery, she faced the challenges of detoxing during the COVID-19 pandemic and the stigma surrounding addiction.

Jess emphasizes the importance of understanding mental health, as she was later diagnosed with bipolar disorder and PTSD, which stemmed from her experiences.

Her story is one of resilience, highlighting the complexities of addiction and the journey towards healing.

In this conversation, Jess Kennedy shares her journey through mental health challenges, including bipolar disorder, ADHD, and complex PTSD.

She discusses the importance of receiving a proper diagnosis, the role of medication in managing her conditions, and the significance of building a supportive network during recovery.

Jess emphasizes the need for advocacy in mental health awareness, the impact of language on perceptions of mental health, and the correlation between ADHD and addiction.

Through her experiences, she highlights the importance of setting boundaries, celebrating milestones, and finding purpose in helping others navigate their mental health journeys.

From the early influences of family, sports like footy, and the rebellious spirit of punk rock—to the dark periods of COVID isolation, 8am bottle shop runs, and car crashes.

With unflinching honesty, our guest opens up about the pain, the pivotal moments of change, and the small victories that led to lasting transformation.

This episode is more than just a story — it’s a message of hope.

Listeners will discover how vulnerability, community, and self-awareness can become lifelines in the darkest moments, and how recovery is both a daily challenge and a deeply rewarding gift.

If you’ve ever struggled with addiction, loved someone who has, or simply want to understand the human side of recovery, this conversation will leave you inspired and uplifted.

Key Takeaways from the Episode

• Addiction can grow from a mix of life experiences — including family dynamics, early passions, and personal struggles.

• Every “rock bottom” is unique — there is no one-size-fits-all turning point.

• True recovery thrives on connection, community, and support.

• Vulnerability and honesty are powerful tools for lasting change.

• Substance use often hides deeper pain or unresolved emotional wounds.

• Recovery is not a destination — it’s an ongoing journey that requires daily commitment.

• Awareness of addiction’s consequences can be a catalyst for transformation.

• Music and sports can be vital sources of identity and healing.

• Our upbringing and family environment shape how we relate to substances.

• Finding meaning, purpose, and hope in recovery can inspire others and spark change.

• In this powerful episode of Slaying Sober, Cath opens up about her deeply personal journey through addiction, relationships, and the road to recovery. From the early days of experimenting with substances in her social circles, to finding escape through sports and eventually facing life-altering injuries, Cath’s story is one of resilience and transformation.

She shares candid reflections on codependency, the impact of the COVID-19 pandemic, and her struggles with mental health and substance use. Listeners will hear how moments of comfort—like her bond with her dog—provided hope amidst chaos, and how her lowest points led to criminal behavior and difficult choices.

Cath describes the pivotal moment of discovering her pregnancy, which inspired her to turn her life around. She takes us through the challenging yet transformative experience of asking for help, the importance of family support, and the invaluable lessons learned in rehab.

This episode highlights the lifelong commitment that recovery requires, the importance of building new, healthy relationships, and the strength found in spirituality and self-care. Cath’s journey is a testament to the healing power of community, vulnerability, and never giving up.

Tune in to Slaying Sober for an honest, relatable, and ultimately inspiring episode about overcoming addiction, reclaiming purpose, and the daily dedication needed to slay sober.

She shares candid reflections on codependency, the impact of the COVID-19 pandemic, and her struggles with mental health and substance use. Listeners will hear how moments of comfort—like her bond with her dog—provided hope amidst chaos, and how her lowest points led to criminal behavior and difficult choices.

Cath describes the pivotal moment of discovering her pregnancy, which inspired her to turn her life around. She takes us through the challenging yet transformative experience of asking for help, the importance of family support, and the invaluable lessons learned in rehab.

This episode highlights the lifelong commitment that recovery requires, the importance of building new, healthy relationships, and the strength found in spirituality and self-care. Cath’s journey is a testament to the healing power of community, vulnerability, and never giving up.

Tune in to Slaying Sober for an honest, relatable, and ultimately inspiring episode about overcoming addiction, reclaiming purpose, and the daily dedication needed to slay sober.

He discusses the challenges he faced after retiring from football, including mental health struggles and the impact of alcohol on his life.

Tom reflects on his journey to sobriety, the benefits he has experienced, and the importance of giving back through coaching.

He encourages others to consider sobriety and shares insights on the cultural significance of drinking in Australia.

• Tom had a dream childhood in country Victoria.
• Drinking culture in AFL clubs has evolved over time.
• Peer pressure to drink during his football career.
• Tom's transition to life after football was challenging.
• He found clarity and mental health benefits in sobriety.
• Tom emphasizes the importance of mental health and seeing a psychologist.
• He believes drinking often leads to poor choices and negative outcomes.
• Tom enjoys coaching and giving back to the community.
• He feels more attentive and present as a father since stopping drinking.
• Tom encourages others to try sobriety for a month to see the benefits.

She reflects on her early experiences with substances, the challenges of teenage years, and the impact of becoming a young mother.

Emmzz discusses the downward spiral of addiction, hitting rock bottom, and the pivotal moment that led her to seek help through rehab.

Now, as a grandmother and a woman in recovery, she emphasizes the importance of family relationships, personal growth, and her aspirations to help others facing similar struggles

• Emmzz grew up in Melbourne
• Her first experiences with substances began in childhood with playful mimicry.
• Teenage years saw a progression into smoking and partying.
• Becoming a young mother at 20 changed her life dramatically.
• She struggled with substance use while navigating motherhood.
• Hitting rock bottom led her to seek help and enter rehab.
• Recovery has allowed her to rebuild relationships with her family.
• Becoming a grandmother has been a transformative experience for her.
• Emmzz is now focused on giving back and helping others in recovery.
• She is pursuing a career in addiction support and mental health.

Through her experiences, she highlights the importance of family, faith, and community support in overcoming addiction.

Emma's story is one of resilience, showcasing how she found hope and purpose in her life after hitting rock bottom. She emphasizes the significance of mental health advocacy and the need for support systems for those struggling with addiction.

• Emma's childhood was marked by chaos and dysfunction.
• She experienced bullying and abuse, leading to early substance use.
• Coping mechanisms included drugs and unhealthy relationships.
• Emma's addiction spiraled out of control, leading to multiple rock bottoms.
• Family dynamics played a crucial role in her recovery journey.
• Faith and spirituality became pivotal in her healing process.
• Emma advocates for mental health awareness and support for addiction.
• She emphasizes the importance of community and connection in recovery.
• Emma's story illustrates the possibility of redemption and hope.
• Recovery requires ongoing effort and commitment to change.

She reflects on her early exposure to substance use, the impact of domestic violence, and the challenges she faced as a teenager.

Macarena's story highlights the complexities of addiction, the importance of community support, and her transformative journey towards healing and sobriety.

In this conversation, Macarena shares her journey of recovery from addiction, emphasizing the importance of community, nurturing her inner child, and the transformative power of prayer and meditation.

She discusses her role as a sponsor, helping others navigate their recovery, and offers valuable advice for newcomers, highlighting the significance of self-love and learning from mistakes.takeaways

• Macarena's childhood was marked by violence and substance use.
• She began using alcohol and marijuana at a very young age.
• Domestic violence played a significant role in her upbringing.
• Heroin became a means of escape from her traumatic experiences.
• Macarena's teenage years were filled with crime and addiction.
• She experienced a turning point during her pregnancies.
• Recovery was a challenging journey filled with relapses.
• Support from the community was crucial in her recovery.
• Macarena learned about unconditional love in recovery.
• She has been clean for almost six years, transforming her life. Community plays a crucial role in recovery.
• Nurturing the inner child is essential for healing.
• Prayer and meditation help set intentions and provide guidance.
• Sponsorship empowers both the sponsor and the sponsee.
• Self-love is a fundamental aspect of recovery.
• Mistakes in recovery are opportunities for learning.
• Building trust is vital in recovery relationships.
• Understanding emotions is key to personal growth.
• Recovery is a continuous journey of self-discovery.
• Embracing vulnerability leads to deeper connections.

He recounts the struggles of recognizing his addiction, the pivotal moment during a boxing match that led him to commit to rehab, and the transformative experiences that followed.

Adam emphasizes the importance of community, connection, and cultural identity in his recovery, highlighting how these elements have shaped his new life and relationships with his family and children.

• Adam was surrounded by substance abuse from a young age.
• He recognized his addiction at the age of 32.
• A pivotal moment in his life was during a boxing match.
• He has been sober since December 2021.
• Connection and community are vital for recovery.
• Adam emphasizes humility and patience in his recovery journey.
• He finds joy in coaching junior football teams.
• Cultural connection plays a significant role in his life.
• Adam has learned gratitude through fostering a child.
• He believes storytelling is essential in recovery.

He discusses the challenges he faced, including multiple overdoses and the loss of friends, and how these experiences led him to seek help.

Andrea emphasizes the importance of support systems, spirituality, and personal growth in his recovery journey, as well as his aspirations to give back to the community by studying alcohol and other drugs.

• Andrea has been sober for 74 days.
• He grew up in a loving Italian family in Brighton.
• His first encounter with drugs was at a school formal.
• Opiates provided him relief from anxiety and self-doubt.
• Addiction took away his sense of self and relationships.
• He experienced multiple overdoses, including a near-fatal one.
• The turning point for him was a bad overdose in front of his family.
• He chose to go to rehab this time, seeking help on his own terms.
• Daily routines in recovery include exercise and self-reflection.
• He plans to study alcohol and other drugs to help others.

He recounts the pivotal moment of entering rehab, the struggles he faced with addiction, and the transformative power of community and support.

Through the 12-step program, he learned to confront his flaws, build a new life, and embrace self-love, ultimately celebrating his progress and looking forward to the future.

Takeaways:

• James reflects on his milestone of 18 months sober.
• Entering rehab was a life-changing decision for him.
• He felt like a 'shattered disco ball' upon entering rehab.
• Addiction is a progressive disease that can lead to despair.
• Finding community helped him feel seen and heard.
• He learned he was powerless over his addiction.
• The 12-step program provided a clear pathway to recovery.
• Acts of service became a way for him to give back.
• He confronted his character flaws and worked on them.
• Celebrating 18 months of sobriety brings him peace and serenity.

From his mother’s spiritual journey to India and running drugs for his father, to his first experience with heroin and time behind bars at Pentridge, Conan holds nothing back.

We explore how family support, holistic healing, and art have shaped his path to recovery, and have an honest conversation about rehabilitation, spirituality, and the deep need for belonging and connection.

Discover how Conan’s journey of giving back and personal growth has transformed his life-and how recovery is a continuous journey of hope and healing. Whether you’re on your own path or supporting someone you love, this episode offers real inspiration and practical wisdom for anyone touched by addiction.

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It highlights the struggles faced during active addiction,the turning point that led to seeking help, and the ongoing journey of recoveryand parenting.

Kaylar emphasizes the importance of self-love, supportsystems, and the gradual process of rebuilding life after addiction.

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In this conversation, James and Chris discuss the journey of addiction and recovery, sharing personal stories and insights. Chris reflects on his experiences in rehab, the challenges of sobriety, and the importance of family support. They explore the significance of living in the present, the role of ADHD in recovery, and the value of giving back to the community. The conversation emphasizes hope, resilience, and the ongoing nature of recovery, encouraging listeners to seek help and connect with others in similar situations.takeaways

• You do not stand alone in your recovery journey.
• Life after rehab can be daunting but rewarding.
• Every day in sobriety is a new beginning.
• The importance of family support in recovery.
• Living in the present is crucial for sobriety.
• Challenges in sobriety can be managed with the right mindset.
• ADHD can impact recovery but can also be a strength.
• Giving back to the community enhances personal recovery.
• Recovery is an ongoing process, not a destination.
• It's essential to seek help and connect with others.