written on his suicide note was the phrase, "study my brain, please" along with other notes about CTE, the brain disease plaguing NFL players.

this poem goes into the mindset of this human being who clearly suffered from mental health disarray and aims to uncover what could have been the cause of this horrific crime against humanity and self.

I hope to raise awareness about the long-term consequences of the sport, and how we're always blinded by what we love, football being a drug that blinds us to the truth of the damaging effects of violent, head to head collisions, along with being the most stimulating source of energy in a young person's life, confused about what value they provide to the world outside of their physical talents, leading them to pursue that path, endangering their health for the long-term, no matter the cost.

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in this episode, a preview for my poem video "i love this game part II" discusses the before and after situation and circumstances surrounding my second concussion in college at the University of Arkansas.

during this time, I became so entrained in the belief that what was most valuable about me was my talent on field, that I forgot about who I was, the world at large full of infinite possibilities, and that success comes in many forms, that I did not need to destroy my body in order to have success, except I couldn't believe, didn't want to believe that to be true, in the middle of this addiction to the sport.

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this video talks about the under the helmet mindset before, during, and following a concussion that increases the danger for football players unable to detect the long-term health consequences of an incredibly tragic injury that is often ignored due to the on-field allure of winning and success.

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how could that lead to long term, unseen consequences?

in this weeks poem video "i love this game part I," I write about my first concussion in high school football and the mindset around needing to get back on the field as soon as possible.

this conversation goes through the mindset of a competitive athlete and how any injury would never limit the best of the best from achieving success in what they love most, leading to consequences they didn't want to admit in the midst of their intoxication.

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or in your inner character, self-development, and self-love?

when one season comes to an end, do you take with you the fruits of the pursuit, or are you left dumbfounded that you haven't developed the self-awareness to know your value outside of your talent?

this poem published by serotonin press is about our tendency to believe our identity should lie in something other than ourselves because we feel incapable to become worthy of all that we can possibly become, instead choosing the most immediate, safe route that we can predict.

in the process of becoming something that does not last forever, we lose out on the holistic version of ourselves, limited in our growth and overall success and happiness.

when the season ends, what do you have left to stand on? are you imbalanced and reaching still?

or standing tall and firm in self-awareness, your heart, light?

this poem is a reminder of where the light begins for every one of us.

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david

it's closer than you would ever think.

in his next poem video release, "light of the world," published by serotonin press, david writes about the exceptionally overwhelming, stimulating, and nonetheless addicting experience of becoming a talented football player, after which leaves players reaching for more and uncertain about what makes them valued in society.

in this world, you'll learn to associate your identity with your performance on the field, valuing the applause above what you feel is true for you, never really understanding how to listen to that voice.

when the attention you learn to feed on comes to an end, what will you do to get it back? or how will you orient your life, and make decisions in order to maintain that social feedback? and who do you become in the process of following the voice of the crowd or what stimulates you, above what is true for you?

this poem is a call for awakening, remembering, and revolution, from chasing lights set out for us to follow, causing confusion and desolation of inner character, to instead chase the cultivation of a peaceful inner world, listening to your heart above all else, and being solidified in your truth, therefore, light.

this poem is a reminder about what makes every individual invaluable in this world, which is not what you have, what you've done, titles, belongings, or who you know, but instead, who you are, how you treat people, what you believe is most important about you, and where your light begins.

you are the light, sacred and divine, which is to be protected and nourished at all costs.

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this poem speaks to the deceptive nature of the authoritarian ecosystem of american football that convinces all participants of the authority and dominance of pursuing its mountain for the proposed, propagandized, benefit of a long, healthy life.

in reality, in our desire to believe in this mountain to protect our health and happiness long term, the exciting yet dangerous nature of the sport becomes the blinder for immediate and long-term health, personal and familial, consequences awaiting us on the journey and at the summit of the mountain's ascension.

in the middle of our struggle to win, we lose sight of how these coaches are constrained by their own lack of job security, pursuing athletic success before personal growth and familial health, sacrificed for the sake of athletic glory, often extending their untamed rage upon their players.

every words, behaviors, and ways of speaking imbed into the psyche and ego of the players, leaving them with a distorted operating system of how to treat the people they lead.

players become the image of their leaders, though we often believe we are only extracting the good and not the bad. it is the whole person we embody, leading players to become perfectly molded the continuation of this mentality of "putting the team first," "falling in line," and financial or professional success is more important that personal health and familial unity, which runs the same course as historical authoritarian regimes, the same power structure of Nazism, fascism, and dictatorship.

we will glorify coaches and players who pursue and conquer this foreign mountain, but then ignore the flaws and character issues during their tenure, or after their time in the sport is over, believing off field problems to be unrelated to their commitment to the sport instead of their own person and families.

in reality, it is the sacrifice of character for athletic success that is the cause of off-field problems, anything to win, perpetuating a mentality of violence, control, denigration of supposed inferiors, and entitlement that creates the ecosystem of destruction, unsafe for any participant, fan, coach, or player.

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this poem is about the false security american football helmets provide, on the one hand posing as our safety mechanism in a violent arena, while on the other encouraging participants to behave more recklessly, unlike they would have before. 

not only that, but because of the insurance we believe to be true, and the encouragement from fans in pursuit of fame and fortune, the helmet becomes a required weapon of destruction that gives immediate benefit in success on-field, but long term ruin in mental and physical deterioration we could have never predicted.

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this problem may afford your immediate gratification, but does nothing but harm your long term health.

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in this video about the poem "how time fled" you'll learn about the time warp that happens when you become immersed in the sport. this time warp becomes a crucible which they learn how to survive, training athletes to embody a certain mold, which they then use in the real world. although you may believe this mold to be fit for success, in reality, this mold is contradictory to a long, healthy life.

given the countless hours spent aiming to become a football player, a sport which doesn't last long for the vast, unfortunate majority of hopeful players, you might wonder if that time would be better spent, on something that helps them launch into the real world with a solid foundation.

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they love the version of you that gives them what they want, your energy.

however, what they don't know, or what they don't want to admit to you, is they love you for what you provide to them. they want you to stay the same so they can stay the same. people don't want to change.

what they don't know is what they're missing from you not living in your honesty.

in this episode, david encourages you to reclaim self-love, your energy, and your inherent power to be able to live in your truth again, where you become full of substance and light, able to give more light, and love others more deeply due to you living in your truth.

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in this episode, you'll learn how spirituality is a universal truth that pervades all human experience, all religion, all human created systems and beliefs and what that means in your daily life.

you'll learn what it means to have a belief and how that dictates how you operate your life, what you believe about yourself and what you're aiming for, or aiming to accumulate to lead a life of what you believe will satisfy you.

finally, you'll learn how health is a combination of both, and the reflection of what you believe in, how you operate, and your understanding of the interconnected of all things.

you'll learn how to think about the structure of the reality we all are a part of and how that applies to your daily life, so you're living a life, day by day, moment by moment, of complete satisfaction and purpose with your individual uniqueness.

to understand how reality works provides you with better vision, how to navigate through cloudy lens, and orient yourself toward making every decision in a way that helps you become someone capable of overcoming any challenge, which means you'll never stop growing as a person.

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Learn how the ego is the voice that tells you to withhold and protect, creating a barrier between you and another, that without the things you have or know or have created, there is no ability to survive.

However, what you’ll find is that is not reality, there is nothing further from the truth. Through the courageous act of awareness, creation, and releasing all that you are to the world, you don’t become lesser, but instead become greater, feeding yourself with the love that you value, as a person who is capable of creating things rather than someone that has things.

When you have things, you are shielded from knowing who you are, shielded from love. You then believe love comes from what you have rather than your the infinite source of love that wants to stream directly through your heart.

As a human being, we all are connected to love, and to allow that love to flow through you, a conduit for love, means that we are here to create, to multiply the love we have for the world, and to witness creation replicate through generations is the greatest act of living on this earth.

To inhibit that flow of energy is to cause problems, disarray within.

To allow the flow is to restore unity in the world.

May you be a conduit for love. May you give unto the world not for the sake of accumulating resources, but to see, feel, witness, and contribute to the infinite world of love around us, that needs you to play your role in the grand parade of life.

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This is a poem I wrote about the NFL office building shooting in NYC back in late July, a true tragedy for everyone involved, including the young man who thought his best path would be to elicit terror & chaos, and end his young life.

You can find the poem and more here.

During times like these it’s important that we try to understand what led this person to commit such a reprehensible act of violence, so that we prevent it from happening again. This problem does not go away simply if guns are banned, sorry. People who want to terrorize, or much more simply abuse, will find other inconspicuous ways to do so.

Therefore, what’s required here is that we put ourselves in his shoes, as difficult as that may be, and empathize with his circumstance, knowing that charging into an office building with a gun is not an act of cowardice, defiance, or betrayal, it’s an act of misguided hopelessness, as his voice feels tuned out, with nobody providing any semblance of a solution, and his heart unable to discern a possible solution to reconcile the broken emptiness that is unbearable to withstand.

To not know true love is the greatest tragedy of mankind, and the root of all problems in this once so beautiful world.

It’s also important to wonder if this is an isolated incident. In terms of public terror, maybe not so drastically, however, when it comes to former football players taking their own lives, abusing spouses, losing careers and annihilating futures, at not just a professional level, but at all levels, even teenagers taking their lives, this is only one of many whose story has been drowned out by 24/7 positive media coverage of the sport. Their power over their fanbase causes people to forget about, or even worse, ignore, the tragedies that occur so often, but are left unrecognized, and unconsidered by ones, like me, who thought their best option to success, and happiness, was to sacrifice the most sacred gift we’ve been given, that I only have one of, that can never be recovered when gone.

I hope this poem can elucidate what’s happening behind the scenes to perpetuate this growing sport so that we can prevent these horrible situations from occurring, and young men can go on to live long, beautiful lives far beyond any athletic success they may, or probably will not, experience.

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Please let me know your thoughts.

Sincerely,

David

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in this episode, learn what a savior really means, and how to equip yourself with the tools to heal yourself from trauma, to live in the state of peace you have always sought, and never found.

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This poem titled “Aaron” has been published on The Sports Scribe.

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David

your beliefs decide how you live your life, with what aim and purpose, and to transform your beliefs into feeding and nourishing the most intimate part of yourself, is to belief that you above all else is capable of overcoming anything you’re faced with.

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does it mean giving endlessly? but what are you giving? and how is that affecting you and those around you? and if you’re not feeding the thing most valuable to you, how is that affecting how much you can possibly give to those around you?

in short, what matters most in this world and how are you operating your life in a way that serves that sole focus?

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