<![CDATA[Living After]]>Living After is a podcast about what happens when life does not return to normal.

Through honest reflections on grief, love, faith, anger, memory, and hope, Santiago Piñón explores the difficult work of living after profound loss. Grounded in his own experience as a father whose children, Amelia and Alexander, were stillborn, the series gives particular attention to the grief of fathers and men—grief that is often carried quietly, overlooked, or left without words.

Rather than offering easy answers or promising that pain will disappear, Living After asks a different question: How do we continue to love, live, and remain present when the life we imagined is gone?

Each episode creates space for the sleepless nights, difficult anniversaries, unanswered prayers, anger, silence, and unexpected moments of grace that accompany loss. It is a podcast for those who grieve, those who walk beside them, and anyone learning how to live faithfully with what cannot be fixed.

Living After is presented by the Silence & Light Institute, creating spaces for grief, dignity, belonging, and the work of staying.

]]>https://riverside.comRiverside.fm (https://riverside.com)Tue, 13 Oct 2026 20:22:20 GMTWed, 09 Sep 2026 17:36:27 GMT60Santiago Pinon<p><b><strong>Living After</strong></b> is a podcast about what happens when life does not return to normal.</p><p>Through honest reflections on grief, love, faith, anger, memory, and hope, Santiago Piñón explores the difficult work of living after profound loss. Grounded in his own experience as a father whose children, Amelia and Alexander, were stillborn, the series gives particular attention to the grief of fathers and men—grief that is often carried quietly, overlooked, or left without words.</p><p>Rather than offering easy answers or promising that pain will disappear, <i><em>Living After</em></i> asks a different question: <b><strong>How do we continue to love, live, and remain present when the life we imagined is gone?</strong></b></p><p>Each episode creates space for the sleepless nights, difficult anniversaries, unanswered prayers, anger, silence, and unexpected moments of grace that accompany loss. It is a podcast for those who grieve, those who walk beside them, and anyone learning how to live faithfully with what cannot be fixed.</p><p><i><em>Living After</em></i> is presented by the <b><strong>Silence &amp; Light Institute</strong></b>, creating spaces for grief, dignity, belonging, and the work of staying.</p>serialSantiago Pinonspinonjr@gmail.comno<![CDATA[12. If You Are Still Here]]>The episode explores the profound reality of survival and the acknowledgment of enduring grief. It delves into the unwanted story of grief, the burden of silence, the impact of loss, navigating faith, the meaning of staying, hope, recognition, breaking the silence, and the continuation of love.


Takeaways

  • Acknowledging survival is an important step in the journey of grief.
  • The continuation of love and the impact of loss shape the experience of grief.


Chapters

  • 00:00 Acknowledging Survival
  • 04:04 The Unwanted Story
  • 05:56 The Burden of Silence
  • 08:01 The Impact of Loss
  • 09:36 Navigating Faith
  • 11:01 The Meaning of Staying
  • 12:27 Hope and Recognition
  • 14:13 Breaking the Silence
  • 17:01 The Continuation of Love
]]>3ee467ad-3692-44d6-9741-8d38800ec58dWed, 23 Sep 2026 19:58:23 GMT<p>The episode explores the profound reality of survival and the acknowledgment of enduring grief. It delves into the unwanted story of grief, the burden of silence, the impact of loss, navigating faith, the meaning of staying, hope, recognition, breaking the silence, and the continuation of love.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Acknowledging survival is an important step in the journey of grief.</li><li>The continuation of love and the impact of loss shape the experience of grief.</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 Acknowledging Survival</li><li>04:04 The Unwanted Story</li><li>05:56 The Burden of Silence</li><li>08:01 The Impact of Loss</li><li>09:36 Navigating Faith</li><li>11:01 The Meaning of Staying</li><li>12:27 Hope and Recognition</li><li>14:13 Breaking the Silence</li><li>17:01 The Continuation of Love</li></ul>no00:21:3211212. If You Are Still Herefull<![CDATA[8. What Grief Changed In Me]]>The conversation explores the profound impact of grief on faith, the evolution of faith after loss, the challenge of silence and prayer, reevaluating faith and explanations, finding meaning in silence, discovering God's presence in silence, the transformation of faith after loss, and the courage to question and understand.


Takeaways

  • Grief changes faith
  • Faith after loss is about discovering what remains after everything has been shaken.


Chapters

  • 00:00 The Impact of Grief on Faith
  • 03:18 The Evolution of Faith After Loss
  • 05:23 The Challenge of Silence and Prayer
  • 07:16 Reevaluating Faith and Explanations
  • 08:34 Finding Meaning in Silence
  • 09:33 Discovering God's Presence in Silence
  • 10:48 The Transformation of Faith After Loss
  • 12:27 The Courage to Question and Understand
]]>f5819fcc-17b4-40ea-9c75-88e7d61bbf01Wed, 23 Sep 2026 19:25:07 GMT<p>The conversation explores the profound impact of grief on faith, the evolution of faith after loss, the challenge of silence and prayer, reevaluating faith and explanations, finding meaning in silence, discovering God's presence in silence, the transformation of faith after loss, and the courage to question and understand.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Grief changes faith</li><li>Faith after loss is about discovering what remains after everything has been shaken.</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 The Impact of Grief on Faith</li><li>03:18 The Evolution of Faith After Loss</li><li>05:23 The Challenge of Silence and Prayer</li><li>07:16 Reevaluating Faith and Explanations</li><li>08:34 Finding Meaning in Silence</li><li>09:33 Discovering God's Presence in Silence</li><li>10:48 The Transformation of Faith After Loss</li><li>12:27 The Courage to Question and Understand</li></ul>no00:12:55188. What Grief Changed In Mefull<![CDATA[9. Faith Without Answers]]>The episode explores the concept of faith after loss, emphasizing the shift from certainty to uncertainty and the evolution of faith in the face of unanswered questions and grief. It delves into the paradox of faith and the importance of presence over answers.


Takeaways

  • Faith evolves in the face of loss and unanswered questions.
  • Presence and companionship are more meaningful than explanations in times of grief.


Chapters

  • 00:00 Faith After Loss
  • 02:27 The Difference Between Explanation and Experience
  • 03:41 Unanswered Questions of Grief
  • 05:25 The Book of Job and the Search for Explanations
  • 08:00 The God I Lost and the God I Found
  • 09:11 Presence Over Answers
  • 10:07 The Paradox of Grief and Faith
  • 11:22 The Evolution of Prayer
  • 12:45 Faith and Uncertainty
  • 13:33 The Measure of Faith
]]>8bb0f653-f06f-40fc-a406-b671f1b78f13Wed, 23 Sep 2026 16:55:04 GMT<p>The episode explores the concept of faith after loss, emphasizing the shift from certainty to uncertainty and the evolution of faith in the face of unanswered questions and grief. It delves into the paradox of faith and the importance of presence over answers.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Faith evolves in the face of loss and unanswered questions.</li><li>Presence and companionship are more meaningful than explanations in times of grief.</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 Faith After Loss</li><li>02:27 The Difference Between Explanation and Experience</li><li>03:41 Unanswered Questions of Grief</li><li>05:25 The Book of Job and the Search for Explanations</li><li>08:00 The God I Lost and the God I Found</li><li>09:11 Presence Over Answers</li><li>10:07 The Paradox of Grief and Faith</li><li>11:22 The Evolution of Prayer</li><li>12:45 Faith and Uncertainty</li><li>13:33 The Measure of Faith</li></ul>no00:16:26199. Faith Without Answersfull<![CDATA[10. When People Expect You To Be Better]]>The pressure to be better and the expiration date society places on grief. Grieving parents often feel the burden of making others comfortable and struggle with the expectation to be healed. Healing is about learning to love and grieve simultaneously, and the gift of remembrance is powerful for grieving parents.


Takeaways

  • Pressure to be better
  • Grief does not follow a timeline
  • The gift of remembrance


Chapters

  • 00:00 The Pressure to Be Better
  • 03:00 The Expiration Date of Grief
  • 07:06 The Burden of Making Others Comfortable
  • 08:30 What Healing Actually Looks Like
  • 10:36 Why Fathers Often Struggle with This Pressure
  • 12:03 The Gift of Remembrance
]]>f4591e32-541d-4908-97a2-247303d1e22cWed, 23 Sep 2026 16:00:29 GMT<p>The pressure to be better and the expiration date society places on grief. Grieving parents often feel the burden of making others comfortable and struggle with the expectation to be healed. Healing is about learning to love and grieve simultaneously, and the gift of remembrance is powerful for grieving parents.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Pressure to be better</li><li>Grief does not follow a timeline</li><li>The gift of remembrance</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 The Pressure to Be Better</li><li>03:00 The Expiration Date of Grief</li><li>07:06 The Burden of Making Others Comfortable</li><li>08:30 What Healing Actually Looks Like</li><li>10:36 Why Fathers Often Struggle with This Pressure</li><li>12:03 The Gift of Remembrance</li></ul>no00:15:4011010. When People Expect You To Be Betterfull<![CDATA[11. What Staying Alive Can Look LIke]]>The episode delves into the ordinary survival after profound loss, the myth of constant progress in grief, the dangerous isolation of fathers, what kept the speaker going, the concept that staying alive does not mean loving less, the importance of asking for help and seeking support, and the theology of staying.


Takeaways

  • Survival is often remarkably ordinary.
  • Grief rarely behaves in a straight line; it moves, shifts, and changes shape.


Chapters

  • 00:00 The Ordinary Survival
  • 03:16 The Myth of Constant Progress
  • 05:51 The Dangerous Isolation of Fathers
  • 08:07 What Kept Me Going
  • 09:54 Staying Alive Does Not Mean Loving Less
  • 11:34 Asking for Help and Seeking Support
  • 12:42 The Theology of Staying
]]>c29ef8f5-4ee1-4777-84fc-eff32e88f4a6Wed, 23 Sep 2026 15:29:47 GMT<p>The episode delves into the ordinary survival after profound loss, the myth of constant progress in grief, the dangerous isolation of fathers, what kept the speaker going, the concept that staying alive does not mean loving less, the importance of asking for help and seeking support, and the theology of staying.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Survival is often remarkably ordinary.</li><li>Grief rarely behaves in a straight line; it moves, shifts, and changes shape.</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 The Ordinary Survival</li><li>03:16 The Myth of Constant Progress</li><li>05:51 The Dangerous Isolation of Fathers</li><li>08:07 What Kept Me Going</li><li>09:54 Staying Alive Does Not Mean Loving Less</li><li>11:34 Asking for Help and Seeking Support</li><li>12:42 The Theology of Staying</li></ul>no00:16:1411111. What Staying Alive Can Look LIkefull<![CDATA[7. What Anniversaries Actually Feel Like]]>The episode delves into the emotional impact of anniversaries for grieving parents, highlighting the coexistence of grief and love, as well as the triggering of anticipatory grief. It explores the weight of anniversaries, the calendar's relentless reminders, anticipatory grief, the impact of birthdays that never happened, the unfinished futures of lost children, the complexity of holidays and grief, the coexistence of joy and sadness, and the importance of acknowledging anniversaries.


Takeaways

  • Grief and love coexist
  • Anniversaries trigger anticipatory grief


Chapters

  • 00:00 Acknowledging Anniversaries
]]>5f2e0c9e-fb2b-43bc-8fad-92ca1a57bce6Wed, 23 Sep 2026 04:49:13 GMT<p>The episode delves into the emotional impact of anniversaries for grieving parents, highlighting the coexistence of grief and love, as well as the triggering of anticipatory grief. It explores the weight of anniversaries, the calendar's relentless reminders, anticipatory grief, the impact of birthdays that never happened, the unfinished futures of lost children, the complexity of holidays and grief, the coexistence of joy and sadness, and the importance of acknowledging anniversaries.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Grief and love coexist</li><li>Anniversaries trigger anticipatory grief</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 Acknowledging Anniversaries</li></ul>no00:16:35177. What Anniversaries Actually Feel Likefull<![CDATA[6. The Silence Between Partners]]>The episode explores the silence that can grow between partners after the death of a child, the different ways in which partners grieve, the dangers of comparing grief, the pressure on men to protect, the importance of staying in a relationship after loss, and the transformation of a relationship after grief.


Takeaways

  • Grieving partners may experience silence and distance, but it doesn't necessarily mean love is gone.
  • Understanding and accepting different grieving styles is crucial for mutual compassion and support.


Chapters

  • 00:00 The Silence Between Partners
  • 02:01 Different Grieving Styles
  • 04:50 The Dangerous Comparison of Grief
  • 06:35 Men and the Pressure to Protect
  • 11:47 Learning to Stay
  • 13:19 The Marriage Had Existed Before Loss
]]>1348ab39-5da2-4c91-b7d2-a3d63be8d5a6Wed, 23 Sep 2026 04:25:51 GMT<p>The episode explores the silence that can grow between partners after the death of a child, the different ways in which partners grieve, the dangers of comparing grief, the pressure on men to protect, the importance of staying in a relationship after loss, and the transformation of a relationship after grief.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Grieving partners may experience silence and distance, but it doesn't necessarily mean love is gone.</li><li>Understanding and accepting different grieving styles is crucial for mutual compassion and support.</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 The Silence Between Partners</li><li>02:01 Different Grieving Styles</li><li>04:50 The Dangerous Comparison of Grief</li><li>06:35 Men and the Pressure to Protect</li><li>11:47 Learning to Stay</li><li>13:19 The Marriage Had Existed Before Loss</li></ul>no00:17:00166. The Silence Between Partnersfull<![CDATA[5. Anger: At God, At Life, At The World]]>In this episode, Santiago Pinon discusses the topic of anger in the context of grief, particularly the anger experienced by grieving fathers. He explores the different forms of anger, including anger at the world, at other people, at oneself, and at God. Santiago also delves into the deeper meaning of anger as a language for love and the importance of understanding and learning from it.


Takeaways

  • Anger as a part of grief
  • Anger as a language for love


Chapters

  • 00:00 Understanding Anger in Grief
  • 03:53 Anger at the World
  • 05:45 Anger at Other People
  • 07:27 Anger at Ourselves
  • 10:20 Anger at God
  • 14:44 What Anger is Trying to Tell
  • 16:19 Learning Not to Live in Anger
]]>63df9d2d-0622-427a-813c-49256c7e62deWed, 23 Sep 2026 03:47:53 GMT<p>In this episode, Santiago Pinon discusses the topic of anger in the context of grief, particularly the anger experienced by grieving fathers. He explores the different forms of anger, including anger at the world, at other people, at oneself, and at God. Santiago also delves into the deeper meaning of anger as a language for love and the importance of understanding and learning from it.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Anger as a part of grief</li><li>Anger as a language for love</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 Understanding Anger in Grief</li><li>03:53 Anger at the World</li><li>05:45 Anger at Other People</li><li>07:27 Anger at Ourselves</li><li>10:20 Anger at God</li><li>14:44 What Anger is Trying to Tell</li><li>16:19 Learning Not to Live in Anger</li></ul>no00:20:01155. Anger: At God, At Life, At The Worldfull<![CDATA[4. Grief at Work, In Public, and Around Friends]]>The episode explores the experience of grief in ordinary life, the hidden exhaustion of grief, navigating grief in public spaces, interactions with friends who don't know what to say, the pressure to be back to normal, and the strategies for surviving public life while grieving. The conversation sheds light on the challenges faced by grieving fathers and the importance of acknowledging and carrying grief honestly.


Takeaways

  • Grief in ordinary life
  • The hidden exhaustion of grief


Chapters

  • 00:00 Grief in Ordinary Life
  • 05:13 The Hidden Exhaustion of Grief
  • 07:08 Grief in Public Spaces
  • 09:10 Around Friends Who Don't Know What to Say
  • 11:23 Pressure to Be Back to Normal
  • 12:49 What Helped Me Survive Public Life
]]>90876560-9ea6-4d9c-bd5e-24d2d368ecf9Sat, 19 Sep 2026 18:00:43 GMT<p>The episode explores the experience of grief in ordinary life, the hidden exhaustion of grief, navigating grief in public spaces, interactions with friends who don't know what to say, the pressure to be back to normal, and the strategies for surviving public life while grieving. The conversation sheds light on the challenges faced by grieving fathers and the importance of acknowledging and carrying grief honestly.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Grief in ordinary life</li><li>The hidden exhaustion of grief</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 Grief in Ordinary Life</li><li>05:13 The Hidden Exhaustion of Grief</li><li>07:08 Grief in Public Spaces</li><li>09:10 Around Friends Who Don't Know What to Say</li><li>11:23 Pressure to Be Back to Normal</li><li>12:49 What Helped Me Survive Public Life</li></ul>no00:16:55144. Grief at Work, In Public, and Around Friendsfull<![CDATA[3. Being Strong Is Not The Same As Being Okay]]>The episode discusses the misconception that being strong is the same as being okay, especially for grieving fathers. It explores the burden of strength, the performance of competence, and the impact of unexpressed grief. It also emphasizes the importance of honesty and vulnerability in the healing process.


Takeaways

  • Strength and wellness are not the same thing
  • Unexpressed grief can manifest in various forms such as anger, isolation, and emotional shutdown


Chapters

  • 00:00 The Burden of Strength
  • 02:11 The Performance of Competence
  • 08:24 Unexpressed Grief and Its Impact
  • 14:30 The Importance of Honesty and Vulnerability
]]>b8757729-80b2-48f9-8a91-70519eda0c6eSat, 19 Sep 2026 16:58:36 GMT<p>The episode discusses the misconception that being strong is the same as being okay, especially for grieving fathers. It explores the burden of strength, the performance of competence, and the impact of unexpressed grief. It also emphasizes the importance of honesty and vulnerability in the healing process.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Strength and wellness are not the same thing</li><li>Unexpressed grief can manifest in various forms such as anger, isolation, and emotional shutdown</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 The Burden of Strength</li><li>02:11 The Performance of Competence</li><li>08:24 Unexpressed Grief and Its Impact</li><li>14:30 The Importance of Honesty and Vulnerability</li></ul>no00:18:52133. Being Strong Is Not The Same As Being Okayfull<![CDATA[2. The Day Everything Became "Before" and "After"]]>The podcast episode explores the profound impact of grief on fathers, dividing life into 'before and after' a tragic event, and the challenging 'in-between' phase of grief. It delves into the illusion of ordinary time, the disappearance of the future, and the darkness of not knowing. It also discusses the survival aspect of going through the motions and the changes brought about by grief. The episode concludes with a message of hope and resilience for those experiencing the in-between phase of grief.


Takeaways

  • Life before and after a tragic event
  • The in-between phase of grief


Chapters

  • 00:00 The Day Everything Became Before and After
  • 01:11 The Illusion of Ordinary Time
  • 03:08 When the Future Disappears
  • 08:04 The In-Between
  • 12:41 Darkness of Not Knowing
  • 15:33 When Going Through the Motions Becomes Survival
  • 22:43 The Silence After the Phone Calls Stopped
  • 26:19 What Changed in Me?
]]>c377be37-477c-4c5f-a0ae-7e77a147ccaaThu, 17 Sep 2026 03:59:41 GMT<p>The podcast episode explores the profound impact of grief on fathers, dividing life into 'before and after' a tragic event, and the challenging 'in-between' phase of grief. It delves into the illusion of ordinary time, the disappearance of the future, and the darkness of not knowing. It also discusses the survival aspect of going through the motions and the changes brought about by grief. The episode concludes with a message of hope and resilience for those experiencing the in-between phase of grief.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Life before and after a tragic event</li><li>The in-between phase of grief</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 The Day Everything Became Before and After</li><li>01:11 The Illusion of Ordinary Time</li><li>03:08 When the Future Disappears</li><li>08:04 The In-Between</li><li>12:41 Darkness of Not Knowing</li><li>15:33 When Going Through the Motions Becomes Survival</li><li>22:43 The Silence After the Phone Calls Stopped</li><li>26:19 What Changed in Me?</li></ul>no00:30:21122. The Day Everything Became "Before" and "After"full<![CDATA[1. Why This Podcast Exists]]>Living After is a podcast that addresses the experience of fathers who have lost a child and the unique challenges they face in grief. Dr. Santiago Pi\u00f1\u00f3n shares his personal story and aims to provide companionship and understanding to fathers who are navigating life after loss.


Takeaways

  • Fathers grieve differently and are often expected to manage their grief quietly, leading to feelings of invisibility and isolation.
  • The goal of the podcast is to offer companionship and understanding to fathers who are grieving, rather than providing solutions or formulas for healing.


Chapters

  • 00:00 A Message to Fathers in Grief
]]>f5643fa3-4484-4ff5-b939-58d6d429a9d9Fri, 11 Sep 2026 19:54:40 GMT<p>Living After is a podcast that addresses the experience of fathers who have lost a child and the unique challenges they face in grief. Dr. Santiago Pi\u00f1\u00f3n shares his personal story and aims to provide companionship and understanding to fathers who are navigating life after loss.</p><p><br /></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Fathers grieve differently and are often expected to manage their grief quietly, leading to feelings of invisibility and isolation.</li><li>The goal of the podcast is to offer companionship and understanding to fathers who are grieving, rather than providing solutions or formulas for healing.</li></ul><p><br /></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 A Message to Fathers in Grief</li></ul>no00:18:23111. Why This Podcast Existsfull