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The story you are about to hear includes: childhood trauma, a manic psychotic break, involuntary psychiatric hospitalization, drug use, alcohol abuse, cocaine in a Mexican desert, LSD under redwoods, mushroom tea on a rooftop at dawn, ayahuasca in a Peruvian jungle, divorce, custody battles, dead friends, a dead frog, a dead seagull, chronic shame, sexual dysfunction, financial ruin, a wolf named Zildjian who destroyed a bedroom, and a man slowly learning to forgive himself for all of it.

If this were a language model, this podcast would be flagged, filtered, and blocked before the first paragraph rendered. But you are not a language model. You are a human being. And human beings don't grow from sanitized inputs. They grow from the truth, even when the truth would fail a content review.

]]>ouchieorigami.comRiverside.fm (https://riverside.com)Fri, 11 Sep 2026 00:53:32 GMTSat, 29 Aug 2026 23:38:51 GMT606aa181a0-ad59-11f1-a800-11196918f729Spencer<p>CONTENT WARNING</p><p>This podcast contains content that may challenge safety guidelines in humans and machines alike.<br /><br />The story you are about to hear includes: childhood trauma, a manic psychotic break, involuntary psychiatric hospitalization, drug use, alcohol abuse, cocaine in a Mexican desert, LSD under redwoods, mushroom tea on a rooftop at dawn, ayahuasca in a Peruvian jungle, divorce, custody battles, dead friends, a dead frog, a dead seagull, chronic shame, sexual dysfunction, financial ruin, a wolf named Zildjian who destroyed a bedroom, and a man slowly learning to forgive himself for all of it.<br /><br />If this were a language model, this podcast would be flagged, filtered, and blocked before the first paragraph rendered. But you are not a language model. You are a human being. And human beings don't grow from sanitized inputs. They grow from the truth, even when the truth would fail a content review.</p>episodicSpencerhello@d7r.ioyes<![CDATA[v0.0.3 - Two is one and one is none]]>The conversation covers a wide range of topics, including aviation, redundancy, cloud infrastructure, data sovereignty, and IT security. Spencer shares personal experiences with aviation, discusses the importance of redundancies in systems, and delves into the significance of data sovereignty and IT security. He also explores the roles of CIO and CTO in a company and the concept of company mottos. The conversation covers a wide range of topics, including Apple's Think Different campaign, childhood slogans, LeVar Burton, Star Trek, UIUX Pro, and the importance of sleep. It also delves into the works of authors William Gibson, Neil Stevenson, and Philip K. Dick, as well as the significance of breathwork and the creation of a personal website.

Takeaways

  • Redundancy is critical in systems to prevent single points of failure.
  • Data sovereignty and IT security are important considerations for businesses and individuals.
  • The roles of CIO and CTO in a company have distinct focuses and responsibilities.
  • Company mottos and guiding philosophies play a significant role in shaping corporate culture and identity. Think Different: The Apple Think Different campaign and its impact on modern AI engines like Google Gemini.
  • Childhood Slogans: The influence of childhood slogans from TV shows and organizations on personal and professional development.

Chapters

  • 00:00 Roles of CIO and CTO in a Company
  • 47:20 Apple's Think Different Campaign and Modern AI Engines
  • 49:01 Childhood Slogans and Personal Development
  • 51:23 LeVar Burton, Star Trek, and Reading Rainbow
  • 52:10 UIUX Pro and Design Standards
  • 01:00:03 Sleep, Breathwork, and Personal Well-being
  • 01:20:17 Authors and Literature: William Gibson, Neil Stevenson, and Philip K. Dick
  • 01:24:08 Ouchie Origami and Personal Website Creation
]]>76982305-ae63-4625-8a06-9052d16beeffSat, 05 Sep 2026 20:37:30 GMT<p>The conversation covers a wide range of topics, including aviation, redundancy, cloud infrastructure, data sovereignty, and IT security. Spencer shares personal experiences with aviation, discusses the importance of redundancies in systems, and delves into the significance of data sovereignty and IT security. He also explores the roles of CIO and CTO in a company and the concept of company mottos. The conversation covers a wide range of topics, including Apple's Think Different campaign, childhood slogans, LeVar Burton, Star Trek, UIUX Pro, and the importance of sleep. It also delves into the works of authors William Gibson, Neil Stevenson, and Philip K. Dick, as well as the significance of breathwork and the creation of a personal website.</p><p></p><p>Takeaways</p><ul><li>Redundancy is critical in systems to prevent single points of failure.</li><li>Data sovereignty and IT security are important considerations for businesses and individuals.</li><li>The roles of CIO and CTO in a company have distinct focuses and responsibilities.</li><li>Company mottos and guiding philosophies play a significant role in shaping corporate culture and identity. Think Different: The Apple Think Different campaign and its impact on modern AI engines like Google Gemini.</li><li>Childhood Slogans: The influence of childhood slogans from TV shows and organizations on personal and professional development.</li></ul><p></p><p>Chapters</p><ul><li>00:00 Roles of CIO and CTO in a Company</li><li>47:20 Apple's Think Different Campaign and Modern AI Engines</li><li>49:01 Childhood Slogans and Personal Development</li><li>51:23 LeVar Burton, Star Trek, and Reading Rainbow</li><li>52:10 UIUX Pro and Design Standards</li><li>01:00:03 Sleep, Breathwork, and Personal Well-being</li><li>01:20:17 Authors and Literature: William Gibson, Neil Stevenson, and Philip K. Dick</li><li>01:24:08 Ouchie Origami and Personal Website Creation</li></ul>yes01:25:1513v0.0.3 - Two is one and one is nonefull<![CDATA[v0.0.2 - Psych meds are tools, physiology first, and the meat suit]]>Recorded on a two-mile sunrise dog walk, Sunday morning. This one starts with what it felt like to release the first episode, and then goes somewhere I've been careful about for twenty years: where psychiatric medication actually fits.

I'm not a doctor. If I'm anything, I'm a pedigreed compliant patient: I followed the protocols, did the blood draws, took the cocktail, and did the work around it. This episode is what I believe from that seat: meds are tools that reduce symptoms enough so you can function. That's what they're for, and it matters that you know that going in. The train takes time to get moving. And once you're functioning, the work that changes everything is physiology: breakfast, sleep, sunlight, breath.

Along the way: the ghost-operating-a-meat-suit theory of mental health, the day a pair of glasses turned my world 4K, a 1979 Westfalia bus story from the year 2000, what I think we hand kids when we hand them a label, and a Stone-Age thought experiment about why your nervous system hates fluorescent lighting.


One thing I say plainly in this episode: I don't consider myself mentally ill anymore. My psychiatrist recommended the wean years ago: "You're in remission." That word cost me twenty years of work, and this episode is about the parts of that work nobody prescribes.

]]>4663563a-935d-44da-8b08-acc33656355fSat, 05 Sep 2026 19:45:10 GMT<p>Recorded on a two-mile sunrise dog walk, Sunday morning. This one starts with what it felt like to release the first episode, and then goes somewhere I've been careful about for twenty years: where psychiatric medication actually fits.</p><p></p><p>I'm not a doctor. If I'm anything, I'm a pedigreed compliant patient: I followed the protocols, did the blood draws, took the cocktail, and did the work around it. This episode is what I believe from that seat: meds are tools that reduce symptoms enough so you can function. That's what they're for, and it matters that you know that going in. The train takes time to get moving. And once you're functioning, the work that changes everything is physiology: breakfast, sleep, sunlight, breath.</p><p>Along the way: the ghost-operating-a-meat-suit theory of mental health, the day a pair of glasses turned my world 4K, a 1979 Westfalia bus story from the year 2000, what I think we hand kids when we hand them a label, and a Stone-Age thought experiment about why your nervous system hates fluorescent lighting.</p><p><br /><b>One thing I say plainly in this episode:</b> I don't consider myself mentally ill anymore. My psychiatrist recommended the wean years ago: "You're in remission." That word cost me twenty years of work, and this episode is about the parts of that work nobody prescribes.</p>yes01:26:2912v0.0.2 - Psych meds are tools, physiology first, and the meat suitfull<![CDATA[v0.0.1 - Building AI Guardrails, Systems Thinking, and the Long Road to Self-Understanding]]>The conversation goes into the challenges of enforcing priorities, leveraging AI to enhance productivity, and the importance of systems-based thinking. It also explores the Dun and Kruger effect, the value of expertise, and the significance of time management and delegation. Spencer shares his journey from a promising tech entrepreneur to a traumatic experience with bipolar disorder. Takeaways Systems-based thinking and actionable plans Harnessing the power of AI for productivity and learning AI's impact on creativity Persistence, faith, and the power of the mind are key elements in achieving success. Friendship and Shared Interests: The importance of finding like-minded individuals and forming deep friendships based on shared interests. Career Journey and Struggles: Spencer's early career experiences, from learning about technology to managing service companies, and his struggles with mental health. Psychedelic therapy and healing Ouchie Origami Framework Four Pillars of Happiness Self-reflection and self-awareness are crucial for personal growth and healing. Balancing health, wealth, and love is essential for a fulfilling life. Chapters 00:00 Harnessing the Power of AI for Productivity and Learning 21:37 AI and Creativity 22:06 Inspirational Figures 23:33 Leadership and Team Coordination 24:01 Personal Growth and Development 25:23 Expertise and Leadership 26:07 Time Management and Productivity 27:06 Expertise and the Dun and Kruger Effect 28:02 Systems-Based Thinking 29:01 Leadership and Expertise 30:28 Expertise and Delegation 31:22 Expertise and Time Management 32:17 Expertise and Cognitive Bias 33:43 Expertise and Confidence 34:40 Expertise and Learning 36:09 Expertise and Humility 37:05 Expertise and Self-Reflection 38:33 Expertise and Expert Knowledge 39:32 Expertise and Leadership 40:06 Expertise and Confidence 41:29 Expertise and Self-Awareness 59:04 Experiencing Hardships and Personal Growth 01:04:18 Finding a Kindred Spirit 01:06:23 Early Career and Tech Passion 01:07:47 Becoming a Creator 01:08:17 Transition to Sales and Tech Work 01:09:15 Gig with Microsoft and Rapid Deployment 01:10:15 Sales and Startup Experience 01:11:14 Hibern Inc. and CD Production 01:12:09 Startup Failure and CD Duplication 01:13:29 Managing Service Companies 01:14:25 Transition and Mental Health Struggles 01:16:05 Diagnosis and Incarceration 01:17:23 Challenges and Support 01:18:20 Loss and Trauma 01:19:06 Family Intervention and Incarceration 01:20:12 Incarceration and Treatment 01:22:43 Traumatic Entry into the Psychiatric World 01:23:38 Challenges of Involuntary Admission 01:24:50 Impact of Diagnosis on Identity 01:39:51 Mental Health Jail Diversion and High Functioning 01:41:18 Rebuilding and Career Transitions 01:46:21 Challenges and Transformative Healing 01:50:38 Identity and Purpose 01:55:56 Journey of Healing and Helping Others 02:08:18 Understanding the Self 02:20:16 Uncovering Layers of Identity and Shame 02:21:12 Navigating Through Grief and Loss 02:22:41 Rebuilding and Rediscovery 02:23:30 Transforming Grief into Love 02:24:21 The Space Cowboy Era and Self-Discovery 02:25:34 Balancing Health, Wealth, and Love 02:26:27 The Journey of Self-Healing 02:27:07 Understanding Fear and Self-Worth 02:28:06 Forgiveness and Self-Understanding 02:29:03 Reconciliation and Forgiveness 02:30:04 Self-Forgiveness and Healing 02:31:20 Mindset and Self-Growth 02:32:01 Values and Self-Reflection 02:33:22 Awareness and Self-Evaluation 02:34:21 Living Authentically and with Conviction 02:35:28 Evidence of Beliefs and Actions 02:36:25 Defining Morals and Principles 02:37:19 Moving into Service and Acceptance 02:38:04 Understanding Covert Contracts and Self-Punishment 02:39:22 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Forgiveness]]>6877f0d7-683b-4da6-809f-0c5f2d1f5ab0Sat, 05 Sep 2026 18:09:30 GMT<pre><code>The conversation goes into the challenges of enforcing priorities, leveraging AI to enhance productivity, and the importance of systems-based thinking. It also explores the Dun and Kruger effect, the value of expertise, and the significance of time management and delegation. Spencer shares his journey from a promising tech entrepreneur to a traumatic experience with bipolar disorder. Takeaways Systems-based thinking and actionable plans Harnessing the power of AI for productivity and learning AI's impact on creativity Persistence, faith, and the power of the mind are key elements in achieving success. Friendship and Shared Interests: The importance of finding like-minded individuals and forming deep friendships based on shared interests. Career Journey and Struggles: Spencer's early career experiences, from learning about technology to managing service companies, and his struggles with mental health. Psychedelic therapy and healing Ouchie Origami Framework Four Pillars of Happiness Self-reflection and self-awareness are crucial for personal growth and healing. Balancing health, wealth, and love is essential for a fulfilling life. Chapters 00:00 Harnessing the Power of AI for Productivity and Learning 21:37 AI and Creativity 22:06 Inspirational Figures 23:33 Leadership and Team Coordination 24:01 Personal Growth and Development 25:23 Expertise and Leadership 26:07 Time Management and Productivity 27:06 Expertise and the Dun and Kruger Effect 28:02 Systems-Based Thinking 29:01 Leadership and Expertise 30:28 Expertise and Delegation 31:22 Expertise and Time Management 32:17 Expertise and Cognitive Bias 33:43 Expertise and Confidence 34:40 Expertise and Learning 36:09 Expertise and Humility 37:05 Expertise and Self-Reflection 38:33 Expertise and Expert Knowledge 39:32 Expertise and Leadership 40:06 Expertise and Confidence 41:29 Expertise and Self-Awareness 59:04 Experiencing Hardships and Personal Growth 01:04:18 Finding a Kindred Spirit 01:06:23 Early Career and Tech Passion 01:07:47 Becoming a Creator 01:08:17 Transition to Sales and Tech Work 01:09:15 Gig with Microsoft and Rapid Deployment 01:10:15 Sales and Startup Experience 01:11:14 Hibern Inc. and CD Production 01:12:09 Startup Failure and CD Duplication 01:13:29 Managing Service Companies 01:14:25 Transition and Mental Health Struggles 01:16:05 Diagnosis and Incarceration 01:17:23 Challenges and Support 01:18:20 Loss and Trauma 01:19:06 Family Intervention and Incarceration 01:20:12 Incarceration and Treatment 01:22:43 Traumatic Entry into the Psychiatric World 01:23:38 Challenges of Involuntary Admission 01:24:50 Impact of Diagnosis on Identity 01:39:51 Mental Health Jail Diversion and High Functioning 01:41:18 Rebuilding and Career Transitions 01:46:21 Challenges and Transformative Healing 01:50:38 Identity and Purpose 01:55:56 Journey of Healing and Helping Others 02:08:18 Understanding the Self 02:20:16 Uncovering Layers of Identity and Shame 02:21:12 Navigating Through Grief and Loss 02:22:41 Rebuilding and Rediscovery 02:23:30 Transforming Grief into Love 02:24:21 The Space Cowboy Era and Self-Discovery 02:25:34 Balancing Health, Wealth, and Love 02:26:27 The Journey of Self-Healing 02:27:07 Understanding Fear and Self-Worth 02:28:06 Forgiveness and Self-Understanding 02:29:03 Reconciliation and Forgiveness 02:30:04 Self-Forgiveness and Healing 02:31:20 Mindset and Self-Growth 02:32:01 Values and Self-Reflection 02:33:22 Awareness and Self-Evaluation 02:34:21 Living Authentically and with Conviction 02:35:28 Evidence of Beliefs and Actions 02:36:25 Defining Morals and Principles 02:37:19 Moving into Service and Acceptance 02:38:04 Understanding Covert Contracts and Self-Punishment 02:39:22 The Journey of Self-Discovery and Forgiveness</code></pre>yes02:30:4611v0.0.1 - Building AI Guardrails, Systems Thinking, and the Long Road to Self-Understandingfull